A question about presentation
Heya all I'm turning to you because frankly I don't know who else to turn to. It's currently been four years since I came out as transgender (MTF) and I know that is a long time. However no matter what I do I cannot see a woman in the mirror, just a bloke. I shave pretty regularly, I try makeup (to much failure but I keep trying) but I can't help but notice that I just don't look feminine or even androgynous. I do not have access to HRT although I am on the waiting list (private and DIY is out of the question due to financial difficulties) and I'm unable to get laser done for similar reasons. How do y'all who have been/are in a similar position to me present in the way you want and have the general public accept that?
If it also helps I am 6ft and weigh 120kg so I do have a bit of podge on my stomach which I am trying to work out. But honestly I'm struggling to find the "me" inside of me and just want some advice on how I can change to be perceived as more feminine.
Thank you for your time