u/zombiier

so like ive been with this guy for 9 months and fpr 6 pf those months we’ve been gf/bf were both still teenagers and we’ve fought alot and in the beginning of our rls i told him i was sa’d and he shamed me, calling me a liar since 1-2 months into knowing him i told him id never done anything with another guy and he blamed me and made me feel like it wqs my fault and made me apologize continuously and i seriously thought it was all my fault and would call me a cheater for interacting w males and having male friends even tho he did the same and i didnt care cus im not a jealous person and once we had a double date and he set up rules like 2 words max u can say to the guy, only talk to him while touching me, etc and then got mad when i didnt follow through, he would bring up these topics continuously in our rls when he would wake up or if i fell asleep or anytime and i always thought i was wrong he was right but he always said i victim blamed and he slut shamed me. THE PEAK OF OUR FIGHTING CAME WHEN HE FOUND OUT I READ AO3 STORIESS cus he considered it cheating (i didnt know it was bad since it wasnt 18+ shit) so he said he now had the right to do or say anything he wanted to so he made me do sexual acts, called me names like bitch, nword, slut, cheater, liar, etc and made me pay for everything but then recently i got fed up and tried to breakup with him but he was crying apologizing and i js felt so bad i couldnt continue on and he lowk ws being manipulating, now hes acting so nice its been 2 days since i tried to break up and idk how to break up since hes being so nice now and i feel bad. Any advice? i just dont feel inlove with him like how i once was and i know this nice him isnt the real him cus i can sometimes see him trying to not be mean its just because he knows i can leave now, he always thought id never and the thing is you cant change in one day but hes somehow trying to do that to himself please give me any advice u can