I just need somewhere to let this out...
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Idk man i feel lonely nd empty idk wat to do, nothing is exciting..past yr seen many death 2 of my grandma died,my dad died, 3 puppies died...
9th la my dad quit his job due to his smoking addiction nd health issues Athuku aprm anna tha financial ah help pannunan(own house irrukuh so future nan athula share la keka matten nu solliten..aprm en clg fees amma gold vanchi tha padiken job poituh antha loan eh adaikanum) so he always kept saying nanthan unna padika veiken so u hv to do this or tht nd enalatha Avan life la fun ila apdilam so I felt like I'm burden to him thts the first time I had suicidal thoughts 10th uh apo... Athu aprm tha en anna oru paiyan oda relationship la irruthan and he slept with a lot of ppl ethalam ik but ennaku enna pannanu thrla amma ta sollava venamanu apo appa vuh romba sick ah irrutharuh ...(anna)he was in very toxic relationship,nan clg la first yr padikum pothu breakup pannitaga then oru ponnu avana love pannuren nu solluchi veetulaiyum ponnu pathutuh irruthom so marriage ku ok solliyachi..then antha paiyan blackmail panna start pannitan anna enta vanthu aluthu nd many things... last ah epudiyo marriage aituh(antha ponnuku theriyum anna relationship irrutha uh) marriage apo kuda nan seithutan oru relation uh ila ella work nanthan pathen day before marriage nyt uh antha paiyan ta irruthu call uh Athuku en brother bayathutuh enta vanthu aluthu nan console panni yabba ethula marriage vera interreligious🫠
Aiyo perusa pothu...few months back only my dad died Athuku aprm I can't sleep orei strange dreams, nightmares ah varuthu..romba tired nd exhausted ah irrukuh thaniya vera irrukan ah thrlaa etho oru mathiri irrukuh enna panna yaru kitta pesanu thrla so avalothan ino neraiya solluven but perusa poituh already 🫠I'm sorry for being too long