r/BPD4BPD

I've always read it's supposed to get better with age, but for me it has gotten worse. I question whether or not something else is going on.

So, my therapist talked about splitting yesterday

Which is the thing where your brain quickly goes from seeing something as all good to all bad as a defense mechanism

And I was thinking 'hmm I don't rlly think I do that because I don't consciously think of things as good or bad'

But I just realized that it's more than that exactly.

Like, I once went from viewing my therapist as the only person who knew how to help me to feeling like she was useless to me.

I realized that it isn't just GOOD and BAD, but positive adjectives and negative adjectives in a way.

Like...

nice to mean

helpful to useless

Competent to incompetent

Independent to dependent

Pretty to ugly

Or if someone loves you or dislikes you

Or if something is worth it or not

Does this sound right?

Also, there something I'm wondering

Is it splitting when you're mind changes really fast? Not in the "good to bad" way. For example, I I have really bad commitment issues. I can never decide whether or not I want to do or be something. Even if it's mundane.

Like whether or not I want to sign up for a certain class, take my driver's test, or order pasta for dinner. Is that splitting, or something else? My therapist didn't answer very well (I don't think she knows lol)