I absolutely cannot read books written in the first person if the main character makes stupid choices
I need to vent about this because it just ruined a book I was actually excited to read. I have no issue with flawed characters or people making mistakes when the story is told from a third-person perspective. It makes sense because you are watching the disaster unfold from a safe distance. But when a book is written in the first person and uses "I", my brain automatically forced me to look at it as if I am the one doing the actions.
Yesterday I was reading this thriller where the female protagonist suspects someone is tracking her. What does she do? She decides to go for a solo walk in an abandoned industrial park at midnight without telling anyone, and her phone is at two percent battery . While reading her internal monologue justifying this idiotic move, I felt this intense wave of secondhand embarrassment and frustration. I actually had to shut the book and put it face down on my desk.
When it is written as "I walked into the dark alley," it stops being a character study and just feels like I am stuck inside the mind of a complete moron. You are trapped in their headspace, forced to listen to their terrible logic, and you cannot stop them from walking straight into a trap. It completely breaks the immersion for me because my actual internal response is just "no, I would never do that."
Maybe my suspension of disbelief is just broken or I lack the empathy needed for this specific style of fiction. I just cannot stand being cooped up inside a POV that has zero survival instincts.
Does anyone else find themselves strictly filtering out first-person narratives because the secondhand cringe is just too much to handle? Or do you just learn to detach your own logic from the "I" on the page?