r/FML

I am 23, live in my mother's house basement. I filled the place up with trash up with garbage and rotting food. there are worms, maggots and cockroaches. One is even crawling on me as I am typing this. I go out of my basement if somehow there is no food near me right now (tho one time there were guests so I resorted to eating weeks old trash near me) I don't go out to use toilet because I just fill up empty bottles with my piss and then throw them out through a tiny window. I even have a poop plate which is a deep big plate that I shit in, then I place the plate behind the window and throw the shit off with a stick and retrieve the plate. my bitch mom always cleans this up, the shit logs and piss bottles. My only enterteiment in live is jerking off to necrophilia gay porn, playing multiplier gun video games and screaming at random shits in lobbies. When my mom has guests come over I always scream to make them go away faster. They almost never return. My mom doesnt want to get me out of this shithole, get me a job, a house, a car and I fucking hate her. she only gives me food and drinks so that I don't die of hunger. I have no idea what to do to make this fat bitch and her husband (which hates me) do something in their live for me. My life is terrible because of them. I also hate women because I can't COUNT the amount of times I met a really cool girl in discord server and they dumped me or asked me for nitro and stopped responding after or turned out to be some guys. I did not take a shower in years, my hair is oily, I dont use theese "desodorants" so even if I tried I cant get out of my basement without help...

I have just ruined probably the best thing to happen to me bc I relapse on drink and I know I shouldn't have and apologise profusely on it but I just cant get my stomach to set the only thing im not throwing up is the alc its rejected all types of food I have tried now im 2 days drunk ranting all over the Internet to deaf ears about how my life is crumbling at my hands and I cant do anything but watch she made me not drink for a month straight which will probably be my best streak of not binge drinking (I count that as sitting at home and drinking a bottle or more) the only alc I had with her where socail ones needed one to get threw a long event or sum but still I hate myself for this

This fucking guy. Im a foreigner , white guy in Japan..

He absolutely shit straight sulfur out on the stretching mat. Like actual rancid egg salad and I walked up to do my thing right then I guess.

Anyway everyone decided they wanted to stretch too. And I got the looks he didn't of course. I'm the sore thumb. But the anxiety that washed over me was incomprehensible. I was like fuck my life I was having such a great time.

I love living here but that shit sucks. Literally.

Even if they didn't care it was so bad and you cant help but wonder why they looked.

" Stinky foreigner" my worst nightmare..

I tell people about it and they fucking hate me fml

I’m cursed with hyper intelligence in a world that not only lacks critical thought but inherent hates it. I have few interests outside of what’s now considered “meta” social thought and all the people who have it too eventually just see me as some thief of joy or are so threatened by my intellect that they ghost me with no apology or explanation. No one can prove me wrong about how bad society is or how bad my experience is because of it. Even my therapist just broke up with me and suggested that I seek a psychologist.

Edit/update: I’m just venting. I didn’t post for advice or your best Mean Girls auditions.

So I finally get into a healthy relationship out of my my 19 years of living with a girl I genuinely love im talking everything shes what im into and shes funny smart everything a man could hope for in a women and then boom my ass that loves to self sabotage fucks it over and now im losing the best thing to ever happen to me and on top of that my other parts of my life are going to shit relapsing on drinking during the day its 12:14 rn and im drunk as shit while im being excluded from all activities from my "friends" such as nights and stuff while I sit here at home with my mam thats a piece of shit while I try to figure out how the fuck im gonna fix this just bc I was horny and and did shit that I regret so much I couldn't slept last night and getting sick at the thought of losing her but fuck if I had the choice id go back in time to break my arm so I could text this girl so id still have this relationship im trying to distract myself in every shape and form but It doesn't help at all. Maybe my mam is right with me being a screw up and never being able to be love by anyone at all thanks for reading me vent while drunk and mad at myself

Im about to meet someone, we have an arrangement, once a month intimacy and I get paid, to make ends meet...

I really don't want to, have to pump myslef up with Valium to endure it (funny that they don't mind I'm so out of it), but today it's especially bad and meds not helping the dread.

fuck my life.

God help me 😭

Want a fufilling career? No, salary pay for the same job will never equal that of a man.

Want respect in academic and work settings? No your word means less than a man, even if they repeat what you say verbatum or say something incorrect your word will never matter as much.

Want to have interesting conversations with strangers? No it all goes back to your apperance and sex appeal!

Wanna have sex? If you don’t want kids, take pills that make you hate initimacy and cant cum! Pills don’t work? Get a device inserted that makes you bleed/have pain for months with no pain relief but OTC meds!

Want to just fucking walk down the street? No, no matter what you wear someone will yell something at you or follow you. Be careful and always aware!!

Want medical attention? Your needs and issues will never be taken seriously- you might even die from them being dismissed! Plus, there is more research on male inpotency than life-threatening female medical issues because FUCK YOU YOU WERENT BORN WITH A DICK.

Want friends of any gender affiliation? Watch your back because 1/4 of all women get SA and over 85% is from people you know!

IM SICK OF THIS SHIT!!! IVE KNOWN FOR YEARS I WOULDVE RATHER BEEN BORN A MAN. I LOVE PEOPLE I DONT VIEW SEX/GENDER AS A BIG DEAL BUT IM ALWAYS REMINDED OF IT WHEN I FORGET FUCK THSI SHIT

listen I love gender expression and I’m comfortable in my femininity as a cisgender woman and such but GOD if i couldve chosen what i was born as itd be a man. right now im trying to figure out birth control as someone with diagnosed mental/physical bullshit goin on its a fucking nightmare because nothing has no negatives. One that doesnt make me touch-repulsed and unable to cum makes me bleed constantly and if i get an iud i might get pain for months on end and not even be sedated for it.

I also have fuckin vestibulodynia so condoms make me need to tap out sooner/irritate it. STUPID WOMEN PARTS

I just wanna fuck this is why i should just stick to women (bisexual and usually top chicks) but i have a stupid boyfriend and sex is stupid awesome but i wont peg him for at least a month yet and i prefer a fuck each other trade off type scenario for my ideal sex life like i still want my shit ROCKED regularly

god knew id be too powerful born a man i stfg

I SWEAR TO FUCKING GODDDUHHHHHH

EDIT: Since some people are confused: this is NOT anti-men internet jargon. It is anti-SYSTEM jargon. 😁👍

My closest and most trusted friends are “white cis-het” men who treat me with equal respect and dignity. I just have seen first-hand how my bad experiences in life as a woman are things they've never even had to consider and usually I brush it off as “just life” but this recent blow made everything bubble up.

I’m 20F, so other than the career thing, which I heard about from other adults in my life, everything I listed that I struggle with as a woman are things that I have experienced unfortunately on multiple occasions throughout my life.

Two days ago I went out with some friends and we got a bit drunk and then some left and it was just me and my other friend. He is a bit crazier and stuff than me and he said that we should check out this massage parlor place, and that we should go. I was still pretty drunk and so I just agreed and normally I would never agree to this but I just did for some reason. So we go and it all happens and the girl that I was with put a condom on me and took off her close and we had sex. Like idk what I was imagining would happen before I agreed but I didn’t know it would be sex. And now I’m freaking out and am really concerned I have something and can’t get over it

Recently started feeling under the weather...sore throat, body aches, chills, figured it was likely the flu. Not my first rodeo, I know how to handle it. A day later, I receive exam results for a really important national test I took at a well-known testing center and I didn't pass. Later that day, found raised bumps on my hands, figured it was a stress rash...iykyk. But then the itching, burning, and electric burning started. Went to urgent care, turns out its HAND FOOT MOUTH DISEASE, as in THE VIRUS YOU GET FROM KIDS WHO PUT THEIR FINGERS IN THEIR MOUTH AFTER PICKING THEIR ASS.

I don't have kids. I don't even LIKE kids, and here I am with a virus you get FROM KIDS.

I bet it came from the testing center somehow...

Either way, now my hands are so painful and weak that I can't grip anything, including the medication I need to take, and cooking food? HA! You try stirring a pot when even a slight temperature change feels like lava across your skin! So today was spent throwing up because of empty stomach, and guess what? I went to rinse my mouth and spit it into the toilet only to have it SPLASH BACK AND HIT ME IN THE EYE.

I swear, if I get fucking PINKEYE because I couldn't eat because I couldn't open a jar of soup because the nerves in my hands are assholes because a kid couldn't keep their hands out of their FUCKING ASS, I'm going to YEET MYSELF.