With how I feel recently about selfshipping as a whole, and with how I feel abt it morally recently, it feels kind of insane, but. Is it weird to want a relationship with a fictional character? the character I have in mind feels like, I feel comfortable with, and everything, I don’t really see myself with a real person,,
I saw a focus on a depressed member of a ficto community. I’m glad people care about them I’m just kind of upset. I used to participate in ficto communities a few months ago with my own love, but my BPD and depression were genuinely killing me. I did my best to be accepted. I attempted suicide a few weeks ago and survived, but I would have died if I didn’t wake up in the middle of the night. I looked back on my posts and I was struggling so much.
Where was my post about concern? When no one heard from me anymore? Where was my dm? I was saying and doing the exact same things they were. I’m never participating in ficto communities ever again and it hurts my heart because my partner is worth sharing. But clearly no one cares about me. I got downvoted when I vented in fact, I could see with the ratio. Sorry I wasn’t likable enough. You don’t have to put up with me and my unbearable attempt at being normal anymore I guess
I HATE SEEING SO MANY DOUBLES ON TIKTOK I HATE IT SO MUCH IT RUINS MY DAY IT HURTS PHYSICALLY TO SEE ALL OF THEM