u/seekingadvicehere

I saw a focus on a depressed member of a ficto community. I’m glad people care about them I’m just kind of upset. I used to participate in ficto communities a few months ago with my own love, but my BPD and depression were genuinely killing me. I did my best to be accepted. I attempted suicide a few weeks ago and survived, but I would have died if I didn’t wake up in the middle of the night. I looked back on my posts and I was struggling so much.

Where was my post about concern? When no one heard from me anymore? Where was my dm? I was saying and doing the exact same things they were. I’m never participating in ficto communities ever again and it hurts my heart because my partner is worth sharing. But clearly no one cares about me. I got downvoted when I vented in fact, I could see with the ratio. Sorry I wasn’t likable enough. You don’t have to put up with me and my unbearable attempt at being normal anymore I guess

So this happened last weekend, and my family is really irritated with me. I asked my sister (32F) for gas money ($50 total) about a week ago since I was between paychecks, and she obliged. I was gonna pay her back this week, but her approach to her son destroying my property has me thinking otherwise.

I'm 19F, I still live at home (working on moving out), and I have a Switch that I got a few Christmases ago. Obviously, I use it almost daily, and I've invested a lot of time into games on there. My sister has a 7 y/o son, and they spontaneously visited last week.

Her son found his way into my room, and asked me what i was doing. I was on my switch, playing a third-person shooter. I had the joycons off of the console, and he was really intrigued. He watched me play for awhile but it was obvious he wanted to touch the controllers. After pausing my game, he asked to hold them. I let him, figuring my sister raised him well enough, but that expectation fell through the floor when he took one, held it for a moment, and threw it against our hardwood floor as hard as he could. it doesn't work now.

I know I can buy a new Joy-Con for $10, but that's for a bootleg one. They don't work, I know they don't because I've bought a bootleg before and it didn't work. I raised the issue with my sister, and she told me that he's a kid, he's going to break things. Obviously more unpleasant words were exchanged, and it ended in raised voices and me abruptly deciding I wasn't going to pay her back.

My mom's not on my side but my dad is (secretly) on my side. I'm flipping and flopping between whether I should pay her back or not despite what her son did. AITAH?

wow this blew up. thank you everyone for your feedback. i can't get to everyone but i've read most of your replies. i'm gonna pay her back and talk to her about my joycon this week.