r/Hermit

How can I sustain myself while living like a hermit?

Hello, it's me Elijah.

I've been wandering a lot of things about myself the past years and how I grew up to the person I am today, a lonely disabled origami artist whose legs and hips don't work as they should after the incident.

I've been like this since for god knows how long, my parents weren't really parents so I had to figure out everything myself growing up and I don't know if I can break myself out of this isolation even if I tried? I did try at least six times and I ended up being right every time, I can't have a partner because I love myself too much, and I can't have any friends because I get jealous fast and I can't even maintain relationships because I am too into myself to allow that to happen, so, I am cooked?

Any thoughts on my so called self imposed solitude?