Did smack after a long time
Today, after a long period of abstinence, I relapsed and smoked smack again. For the past week, I had been trapped in a relentless internal conflict, negotiating with myself over whether I should give in or resist the temptation. Despite every attempt at restraint, I ultimately succumbed and bought some.
I brought it home and retreated to my storeroom that evening, where I smoked line after line in complete isolation. I must have done eight or ten before returning to my room. Yet the craving refused to loosen its grip on my mind. I kept rationalising it, persuading myself that I would wait until after 10 p.m. before taking more. Unsurprisingly, I gave in again, did a few additional lines, returned to my room to watch a film, and eventually went back once more to finish the remainder of it.
Now I am profoundly intoxicated, lying here in a haze and typing out this strangely self-aware confession.