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I’m a woman in my late 20s, and my husband and I have been married for less than two years.

Before anyone asks, I take very good care of myself. I’m conventionally considered attractive, maintain my body, appearance, hygiene, skincare, and fitness, and I still receive plenty of attention from other men. Even my husband says I’m hot. I’m only mentioning this because people often assume a dead bedroom happens because someone “let themselves go.” That isn’t the case here.
Ironically, my husband isn’t conventionally attractive and wasn’t particularly fit when we met, but none of that mattered to me. Cheating has never been an option because I believe intimacy should only come from your partner. Everything changed after marriage.

Our sex life is practically nonexistent. He initiates maybe once or twice a month, and even then it’s usually just for oral sex. We rarely have penetrative sex, kiss, cuddle, or show any physical affection.
When I initiate, I’m almost always rejected. Every time I ask why, I get another ridiculous excuse. At this point, I constantly wonder if he’s no longer attracted to me, addicted to porn, seeing someone else, or even hiding his sexuality.

The worst part is that when I refuse oral sex, he doesn’t respect my “no.” He keeps pushing, and there have been multiple occasions where he has physically forced me despite me saying no, even while I was on my period.
Outside the bedroom, I’m emotionally starved. I don’t feel supported, understood, comforted, or prioritized. Since moving to another country, I’ve also become financially dependent on him, leaving me feeling trapped and powerless.

Less than two years into marriage, I’ve already built up so much frustration and resentment that I barely recognize myself anymore. I don’t even think the lack of sex is the biggest issue now. I just feel unwanted, emotionally neglected, and completely alone.

Has anyone been through something similar? What do you honestly think is going on here?