I think my mom is the reason why my relationship with my body is so bad.
So a lil about me - I'm a short person (5 ft) as well as a lil chubby and growing up my mom would take me to badminton, swimming, basketball etc. with a hope that it'd help me grow taller. Now growing up I wasn't that insecure about my height or weight but I do have a vivid memory of one day when I was not in the mood to go for swimming class and my mom yelled at me saying if I become lazy like this I'll end up becoming fat like my cousin.
Also, she's always been super conscious about her weight. While she's been doing yoga and gym for many years (my school days), I've always seen her talk about getting thin and not fit. I do understand that the generation she comes from had a very different school of thoughts. And now I'm a strong 5' female - I can do 3 sets of 15-20 full pushups, I recently cracked 1-2 chinups, I'm training for pullups, I run 10k multiple times a year, I dance - very active lifestyle but even then the first thing I look at in the mirror would be my slightly chubby arms, my hips - which i constantly feel are larger for my frame.
And then today I showed my mom an AMAZING dance video of my new Kathak teacher and the first thing she said was - "she's a lil fat na but". And a couple days ago also I showed my mom a picture of one of my new friends who's actually become a close friend now and the first thing she said was the same thing! And it annoyed the hell out of me! And I was like I think I finally know why I'm never satisfied with the way i look! I'm a lil disappointed - not really with her (or may be a lil) but just with the whole scenario.