r/PsychedelicStudies

Hello everyone,

I wanted to share a specialized psychedelic-assisted playlist for deep-dive neuro-therapy and expanded-awareness sessions.

This arrangement is heavily inspired by the pioneering frameworks used at the Johns Hopkins Psychedelic Research Center. The goal was to create a "nonverbal support system"—something that provides a stabilizing structure without being intrusive.

**The Structure:**

**Stabilizing Entry:** Grounding frequencies to ease into the state.

**Nonverbal Support:** Carefully selected segments to maintain emotional safety.

**Somatic Integration:** Designed to support both dissociative states and deep somatic processing.

I’d love to hear from any practitioners or journeyers if this flow resonates with your experiences.

Hello. I'm here to tell you that you can do it! I struggled for a very long time to try and make games, hear me out on my story so it may give you strength.

I have worked on Star wars survivor, Doom Dark ages, Borderlands 4, Fifa, Diablo 4, and many other games as a VFX artist. Here is my started at the bottom and with a lot of hard work, remained at the bottom and to this day still at the bottom.

Yes you will wear many hats if you want to make a game, but if someone in my position can do it. So can you! I didn't have family or friends growing up. I was in the foster care system and jumped homes about 38 times in 10 years. dropped out of school at 15 and roaming the streets as an uneducated scum, I had run away from my grandparents house who were trying to take care of me at the time and my grandfather had died, at the time I didn't realize what I was doing but he tried to put me on a path. Something in me snapped that day which lead me on this Giant journey to succeed. I would go to the library to study how to 3d model and code in Scratch, game maker and Blender.

I spent about a year doing that before I started studying computing 1,2,3,4,5 and before you know it I was applying for university. Once I got to university without the help of anyone. I was broke, moved to a new city from a small town, I had no friends or family and was trying to make things work. I lived in a shoe box apartment shortly midway through university my brother committed suicide which threw my brain into a spiral, I became an alcoholic and started taking drugs. meanwhile my grades went down and my life started to hurdle. However I still had that fire in my belly that my Grandfather gave to me. I pressed on. I stopped drinking after being hit by a bus and broke my pinky finger and a few bruises.

I graduated university barely - No one showed up from my family that I had invited. I was alone truly, I tried my best not to break down inside as if my journey was silently celebrated but in my mind I was dying. yet I pushed on I had a toxic relationship throughout the duration of the second half of university and now that I had graduated I was pursuing a job in the games industry. I spent a year applying wondering why all the leads and people I spoke with ghosted me. I would later find out that my partner had been using my emails, facebook, twitter and probably other accounts saying I wasn't interested and deleting emails etc. . .

I spent 2 years in total trying to find something, I was working two jobs and in my spare time practicing how to become a VFX artist. I left the toxic relationship after I had landed my very first job working on some mobile game, it was just enough money to live off and I could finally full time game development. I would work with this mobile game and in my spare time continue to learn and improve. I went from one client to 7 within 6 months, I doubled tripled and quadrupled what I was earning just a year ago. I had made I thought to myself.

I fell into a mental breakdown, my goal, my passion my drive had been quenched "I did it, I thought to myself, I made my grandfather proud maybe?" the one person who tried those 8 years ago when I started this journey. I fell into depression, I attempted suicide at 25, I was met with a dream, that dream was short but vivid. I can't really explain the dream but it felt like I was loved and home. I was drunk and didn't want to try anymore, I didn't want to make myself happy, I didn't do this journey for myself but for my grandfather, I didn't know where I was meant to go or do or what the goal is now.

Some friends at the time suggested psychedelics (I'm not trying to glorify drugs here) but I tried LSD one time I was spun into a cascading spiral inside my mind, and a literal epiphany happened, I accepted my situation and who I was and fell in love with myself for all that I had achieved on nightmare difficulty. After this everything switched up. My mind had become super charged. Depression was gone fully. However the world had other things to throw at me before I could fully move on.

I had a girlfriend at the time who had committed suicide again met with more mental dilemma's, shortly after my sister overdosed and died from drugs. things kept going in a downward spiral yet again, I wasn't depressed, just sad and empathetic, it made me think of when I tried to give up on life. How other people may have felt if I had. Basically I wanted to share my thoughts on the topic because even when you are down bad, beaten and broken there is still hope for you yet. Just keep going and push through it all. And if you manage to find the time. I am working on my own game now called Pinch N Roll on steam, you can check it out if you want. but yeah have fun! good luck and stay strong! You got this!

Does dipt have a cross tolerance with traditional psychs? I took metocin Saturday and am considering trying dipt tomorrow.

So I'm pretty much a new by on shrooms, I've had like 5 trips total, being the greatest dose I had about 1.5 gram up to the other day.

After a long time watching videos on YouTube about dosages, I decided to do a 2 grams trip, wich was sold to me as a low dose.

Anyway, I took the shrooms at about 10pm and almost immediately I started to feel like an intense feeling of low blood sugar or something, I thought I was going to pass out.

I started panicking because I thought the shrooms were laced with something and because my house was full of people that were about to leave, but the shrooms were kicking in and people weren't going away. They were talking to me, asking questions and I tried my best not to show I was freaking out.

By the time they left I was having full visuals and started to think that I was getting crazy and felt like I was about to die.

I told my wife what was happening and urged her to call my shrink, who didn't answer, and to call an ambulance, but she was on hold for like forever.

By this time I was having triple vision, almost getting crossed eye. My wife left to call my brother who lives really nearby, and I was alone for the first time, seeing all types of crazy patterns on the walls, seeing what felt like ancient symbols, feeling like there were wild animals nearby my house, like cougars and stuff. I started hearing noises, like knocking on my door, the door bell ringing (no one there).

I was fully aware that this noises were hallucinations, and was sure I was going crazy and I was about to die.

I managed to call a friend who is a doctor, my hands trembling, really hard to read anything on the phone. He said I just had to ride it out, wich made me even more scared.

My wife got back with my brother in what felt like half an hour, but it was like a couple of minutes.

Once they were there and we started talking, I was finally calming down and the rest of the trip was just the visuals.

An important thing to add is that I've had gastric bypass surgery, wich I think explains the rally fast come up.

What was getting me really scared was the build up. I thought that if with so little time I was already in that shape, it would get a lot worse. I was really afraid of having an ego death because I really wasn't ready for it.

I guess I would like to know if, from what I described, it was just a bad trip or also an ego death. I've read some stuff that an ego death can feel like you're dying and going crazy. What do you guys think?