r/PsychotherapyLeftists

A year ago I started off as a peer/ life coach and while maintaining my peer role I’ve become a job coach. I only have hate towards my consumers now. On more than one occasion they tried getting me fired when things don’t go their way. They rarely show up to appointments and often blame me for them not showing up despite giving out reminders. I’ve been yelled at repeatedly never by my boss, but by multiple consumers for very mundane things. I can go on and on. The pay has been ok ever since I transitioned to full time, but now I’m a punching bag for no other reason than trying to help these people. I know I shouldn’t feel this, but it’s the only emotion I can feel regarding them and my own mental health has taken a toll

I’m not a therapist, but a peer support specialist and I’m asking for advice and out of curiosity honestly. One of my consumers recently joined the same political group as me. Should I do anything? Sorry if this isn’t appropriate for here

My brother is diagnosed autistic and was in special education. He pretty much has hated me for my whole life and our parents weren’t that great too. They were abusive. I am a woman, but was not diagnosed with anything until adulthood and was in AP and gen Ed classes.

He has done horrible things like when the police knocked on the door and he told me to go answer it (I didn’t know police were there) and the cop told me my brother was going to kill himself and the cop grabbed me and I had to explain that I was not my brother. He grabbed my brother and took him to the psych ward. My mom blamed me for not stopping police from grabbing him and said I was responsible for all of this then proceeded to leave me at the psych ward as punishment so I had to walk home.

Another time was a white man showed up at our house and opened it and screamed at me and yelled racist slurs at me before finding my brother and threatening to take him to jail if he continued speaking to his daughter that way. He then waited inside the house until my dad got home and proceeded to yell and threaten him too before leaving.

My brother has also been in physical fights over girls and my parents have blamed me for not being able to stop the fights even though I’m not physically there?

Before I was kicked out, he would be gone for multiple days at a time and I had someone message me about him sleeping at the skate park.

I also know my mom did all of his homework in college for him and blamed me for my brother for not finding a job after college. He also cheated in college, got caught, then blamed me for not stopping him.

I did have people who harassed me growing up go to the same college as me and my brother who continued to harass us.

Nowadays, he lies saying he knows a famous rapper. I have him blocked on everything so I don’t know what he’s up to.

But it’s unsettling he is like this. He also used to hit me growing up.

I don’t really know what all this is. I feel like it’s domestic violence.

I just started a job as a newly certified AMFT that will be paying for me to go through CPP training. I started reading a book they gave me that they wanted me to begin reading before the training course begin soon. In the acknowledgment of the book, it mentions something about one of the authors teaching in “her beloved Israel.”

I started doing more digging and see one article she cosigned critiquing academic BDS practices and uses the words genocide in quotes when referring to what is happening in Gaza. I then found another article she cosigned condemning Lara Sheehi, a prominent anti-zionist clinical psychologist. If you have read any of Dr. Sheehi’s work or listened to her speak, you would see how disturbing this is as someone who believes that israel is a settler-colony occupying Palestine.

Anyway, not sure how to feel about this since Alicia Lieberman is a huge figure in CPP. It makes me question the perspectives and narratives around CPP, and wonder about how it could be developed from a more decolonial Fanonist stance.