r/QatarCareers

Rant because I am on the brink of losing hope in everything. I'm 22 and live with my mom (who's divorced from my father) and my younger siblings. I cut contact with that man because he was abusive to her and me and hes never let me have my peace since. When i turned 18 I started a temporary job when I was under his sponsership, he then found out before my contract was even finished and caused the most embarassing moment of my life..humiliating me in front of my workplace, gathering people to watch, calling me all sorts of slurs and even tried blocking my way from leaving the scene saying he had the police on the phone and tried pushing me to the floor. in public. in my workplace. I ran away and was terminated despite the hr of my work knowing about my family situation but they didnt want legal troubles because hes my sponser and I didnt have an noc so they let me go and gave him private info about me including my work contract which they lied about to saying I worked for a year when I only did 3 months and basically blocked me. His logical reasoning to the people who gathered around was that my mom was forcing me to work instead of allowing me to pursue my education (never true it was my choice and partially due to the fact that he refused to pay unless it was via court or apply in my home country where he would have more control over everything I do). He then told my siblings during one of their visits with him that if he ever found out I tried working again he'd cut off my head. great father figure and all. I literally do not speak to the man or have contact with him, I dont even want to go to court because I don't want anything tying me to him, least of all money. We live on literal crumbs of his monthly income because he lied in court and faked debt and the judge believed it despite him being the abuser. we're a family of 6 surviving on less than 10k, and now hes even asked to cut it in half through another case because he got remarried and has a new born and step child. Keep in mind this man works for a huge well known company in a very high position, he is well off and more. but how dare i work to survive right?! and its his legal right to stop me because I need his permission to even work in the first place💀 nvm all that HOW am I supposed to apply to jobs and be able to commute there and back when we can barely afford basic needs and scrape by borrowing money every single month. I had to decline going to 2 interviews because I didnt want to waste their time by showing up for it then not being able to commute to work on a daily basis, it was embarassing and I felt like they thought I was playing in their face when all I want is to work so I wouldnt need him, and i know most companies need a transferable visa or noc and I can't even provide that because the nature of the relationship between me and my sponser so it feels like applying is not even worth it at this point. I'm so tired I've lost hope in both finding a job or continuing my education without him always being an obstacle in the way and why? because i share dna with him? because hes the reason I was brought up in this country? but I cant leave too because I don't even have my passport hes refused to renew it since the divorce and lied to say he didnt have it to the judgex so if I were to leave by any other means I am basically saying bye to seeing my siblings and mom who live here because I wouldnt be able to come back, not to mention hes threatned me if I did eventually leave to go back to my homr country that he was gonna hurt me/ send people to do so (and I have audio proof of that on multiple occasions) and after all this in front of a judge im still looked at as the disobedient child who cut contact with their father and is in the wrong. im so over this life of being burdened by something that isnt my fault to bare but his own shame and wrongdoing and him living life and being rewarded by his work and everyone around him while we struggle to pick up pieces from the damage hes caused and continues to cause. i just want to breathe