r/StressFreeSeason
Help me please. It’s eating me.
I moved to Delhi from a small town in MP around 9 months ago and honestly it’s been a lot to process.
When I first came here I was quite naive and ended up getting fooled by people a few times, which already made me anxious about trusting others. I stayed with my brother initially but during that time I got severe dengue and had to be admitted to the ICU for a week. It was really traumatic, I literally saw people dying around me and it affected me more than I realised at that time.
After that I shifted to a flat in North Campus with a few girls (we didn’t know each other before, the broker just put us together). That flat had no sunlight and just felt very off to me, plus there were constant issues with the upstairs neighbour and eventually we had to leave. It was my first time dealing with all this and it stressed me out a lot.
Now I’m in a new flat with the same flatmates and things are much better. There’s sunlight, I finally have a routine and I’ve started studying properly again. The only issue is that the flat itself has some problems like no washing machine, high rent and some things not being fixed by the owner.
The main thing stressing me out right now is that my flatmates are in third year and are planning to move out soon. I’ve already spoken to them and the broker and they said they’ll inform at least a month in advance and that replacements can be found easily. But I still keep overthinking that something might go wrong and I might suddenly be forced to leave.
They haven’t actually done anything wrong to me, but because of my past experiences here I keep feeling like people might manipulate me or things might go out of control.
Am I overthinking this? How do I stop feeling anxious about something that hasn’t even happened yet?
Update: I spoke again to both the broker and one of the girls and they reassured me that replacements will be found and they’ll give a one month notice because they also don’t want any security issues for the flat. I still feel anxious though.
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