r/TwoXADHD

For any other woman out there in the lost generation of women as they call them i just want to add some positive support i have found in my journey since my diagnosis. 6/4/25 i was rescued from Xanax addiction of decades and alcoholism by the grace of God. Im now a walking living breathing testimony. but onto later i had perimenopause come along later last year out of nowhere i had done alot of inner child healing work through ifs trauma therapy which i know have heard and totally agree helps with adhd specifically RSD. Highly recommend it i did it for my cptsd but its helped so much for my other issues. I was misdiagnosed at 12 with anxiety and panic disorder and given xanax mostly because i had a Narcassist abusive mother who said i was put of control and i wasnt. I also cut contact with her finally after god saved me from the alcohol. In December i was diagnosed auhd ive only been given Adderall xr but it helps alit and ive learned so much that i can do to help me and do alot of awareness on auhd and cptsd. But what i want to say is i have had that rsd much of my life. And took things personal beat myself up that i was the problem y i would deal with rejection but tbh im not my brain just thinks differently. And the blessing is at perimenopause your energy reserves are low for bs and after ifs and with the hormones and sobriety realizing all those ppl were not friends and fake drinking at the bars with me i feel more free than i ever have my whole life. I had not known i was always so exhausted in the past from masking but i did it and i refused to anymore i ripped the mask off chose me chose authencity and if ppl dont like it whatever i love me and god loves me. Your peace becomes more important at 47 so choose u and protect ur peace.

I was first diagnosed with ADHD at 16. I tried Ritalin, developed significant depressive symptoms, and my mother didn’t pursue treatment further. Over the next \~15 years I was diagnosed with BPD and bipolar disorder (bipolar was later ruled out), and two psychiatrists doubted ADHD. Recently, a targeted adult ADHD assessment strongly supported ADHD and I started lisdexamfetamine.

My problem is that I can construct two explanations for my life.

I was an extremely intense, emotional, easily bored child who constantly wanted something else. But I was also raised with very little structure or consistent boundaries. My mother struggled with my emotions, so if I became upset/persistent enough, I often got what I wanted. Even school attendance wasn’t strongly enforced. She was also the informant for my recent assessment, but becomes defensive when asked about my childhood, so I’m unsure how reliable that history is.

What if I simply never learned frustration tolerance/self-regulation and it now looks like ADHD?

On the other hand, I have lifelong stimulation-seeking and executive difficulties. I can work, maintain my home and fulfill responsibilities, but starting routine tasks can feel disproportionately difficult even after doing them hundreds of times. My brain automatically plays out every step/transition beforehand (e.g. gym = get ready → bus → walk → change → exercise → reverse the whole process), making tasks feel exhausting before I start.

Boredom can feel almost physically painful. I talk A LOT and have sought stimulation through things like sex/hypersexuality and sometimes alcohol. Interestingly, when I worked insanely busy 18-hour days in television, with constant deadlines/problems/stimulation, I felt more focused, regulated and “normal” than during quiet periods.

Four years ago I also went through an extremely distressing relationship and my functioning became significantly worse afterward. I have intense relationship-related emotional dysregulation: rejection, uncertainty, not reaching my partner or plans changing can trigger a physical emergency response before I’ve even consciously processed what happened. I know this could be attachment/BPD/learned regulation rather than ADHD.

SSRIs/SNRIs reduced anxiety somewhat but never quieted my brain or helped the apathy/understimulation; mood stabilizers such as lamotrigine did basically nothing. Lisdexamfetamine sometimes makes my brain/body feel quieter, thoughts less sticky and boredom easier to tolerate, and I crave alcohol less. I know stimulant response does NOT prove ADHD.

So how do clinicians distinguish lifelong ADHD from intense temperament + lack of childhood structure/self-regulation + attachment/emotional dysregulation when childhood memories and parental reports are unreliable?

I’m not asking Reddit to diagnose me. I’m trying to understand what evidence actually helps distinguish these possibilities.

TL;DR: ADHD was diagnosed at 16 and again recently, but I also grew up with little structure and have major emotional/attachment issues. How can clinicians distinguish ADHD from learned self-regulation problems when childhood history is unreliable?

If you have an ADHD diagnosis/self-diagnosis, or referral in place, aged 18 years or older, and who are proficient in English, to take part in a study to explore the lived experiences of relational rejection for adults with ADHD.

It is not a requirement for you to currently be, or have ever been, in a romantic relationship.

If you decide that you want to read more information about this study (e.g., the types of questions and how your data will be handled) please follow this link:

https://app.onlinesurveys.jisc.ac.uk/s/chester/exploring-the-lived-experiences-of-relational-rejection-for-adu

You will see a brief version of the information sheet, which also includes a link to the full information sheet.

Interviews will take place at the University of Chester, Parkgate Road campus or online via MS Teams. 

There's a place to mention any reasonable adjustments that can support your participation when you sign up.

During the interview, some of the questions will ask you about how you view ADHD, your experiences of rejection and how this feels and your views/experiences of romantic relationships. If you feel that these types of questions may cause you distress or become triggering, there is no obligation for you to take part.

If you do decide to take part, you can withdraw at any time without consequence.

Any answers given will be completely confidential and anonymous.

Thanks!

p.s. if you have any issues with the links, but still want to take part, feel free to email me with any questions r.mort@chester.ac.uk

This is the 2nd study I'm running as part of my PhD. If you can't take part, but want to discuss the topic I am open to having a chat! I might respond via DM if my response is unavoidably leading, just to protect the integrity of the study for future participants 😊

Why and how are so many people since Covid getting diagnosed with ADHD and put on stimulants at age 35 and above?

I'm just wondering how someone goes a good portion of their adult working life and not know that they could have ADHD- or at least know their was a problem-earlier? Could it be that some just have some overlapping symptoms and don't really have ADHD or perhaps a mild form that doesn't need stimulants?

I need advice.

I've been diagnosed recently after so many of my friends started pointing out to be that i might be ADHD about a year ago , even my partner agreed strongly.

I got curious and started researching and it blew my mind how much of my personality and personal struggles are connected to ADHD.. it's kind of overwhelming and scary even.

I decided to not live in a delusion and speak to a therapist, she agreed i might be ADHD after many sessions and referred me to a psychiatrist to confirm, which confirmed the diagnosis and said i have depression as well.

So imagine all of this together hitting me in the face, i feel like I'm battling my own mind and analyzing everything and cannot stop researching . I feel scared ,trapped,relieved,overwhelmed, tired and sad all at once.

Let alone all my life i thought all my mental struggles and inability to control my emotions was because of my PCOS and that made me feel helpless as well because i felt that i was fighting against my hormones.

Now it's both my brain and my body causing me distress.

I do not want my whole personality to be summed up to ADHD . I feel like I'm in a black hole and i sink deeper and deeper , i feel like i do not know what i am without this.

Note: my psychiatrist put me on Bupropion Hydrochloride (150 mg) for my depression. I have been using it for 2 weeks.

And then she added ADHD nonstimulants atomoxetine ( 60 mg) which i only took once.

I'm not trying to self-diagnose and I'm not looking for anyone to tell me that I definitely have ADHD or anxiety, but I've been noticing a lot of things about myself recently and I'm wondering whether it's reasonable for me to talk to a professional. I've struggled with time management, being late, procrastinating and leaving things until the last minute for as long as I can remember, and I often really want to do something but feel like I physically can't get myself to start, even with simple things like getting out of bed, brushing my teeth or cleaning my room. My room has been extremely messy for a long time because I feel completely overwhelmed by where to start. I get distracted really easily, can start one task and then suddenly remember another thing and end up doing something completely different, and I zone out quite often. Sometimes I can also become extremely focused on one thing and lose track of how much time has passed. My brain constantly feels like it has hundreds of thoughts happening at once, and sometimes my thoughts move so quickly that I can't keep up with them when I'm talking—I forget what I was saying, jump between topics or say random thoughts out loud. I also feel like I constantly need to be doing something physically, like moving my toes, rubbing my hands together or fiddling with my hair/clothes. At the same time, I've been experiencing a lot of anxiety and overthinking. I constantly worry that my friends secretly dislike me or that I've said something wrong or annoying, and I can spiral from one tiny interaction into thinking they'll stop being my friend and tell everyone about me. I reread texts I've sent because I'm worried I sounded rude or mean, and I often worry about how I'm coming across even while I'm talking. My brain feels like it's switched on 24/7, and sometimes I use scrolling because it quiets my thoughts for a while. I've also noticed emotional overwhelm—for example, if I'm already tired or stressed and something unexpected happens, I can suddenly become extremely upset and cry even when I know the actual situation isn't that serious. I've been feeling exhausted and like I haven't properly relaxed in months, and recently I've also had headaches, jaw clenching, restlessness and sometimes chest tightness/breathlessness. Some days are much better than others, but these things seem to happen outside of school too, including during holidays. I don't know whether any of this points to ADHD, anxiety, stress, something physical, or something completely different, and I don't want to assume it does. I'm mainly wondering if anyone has experienced similar things and whether you think it's reasonable for me to talk to a doctor or psychologist about it.

Also to note- i am still in school
also sorry if this is unnecessary and if this is the wrong page to upload it to, and i'm really sorry if this is not ok, please just lmk and i will delete it, i just don't know what to do anymore
please feel free to ask anything or tell me anything im very open to ideas currently.

I don’t hear about this combo a lot since many people say symptoms from the two overlap, suggesting you either have one or the other (not both).

As a diagnosed gal with both, I was looking to find my people also living life on WTF mode. What’s it been like for you?

P.S. I’m overfocused/hyperactive/high-achiever and not inattentive like many ADHD women.

First off I have lots of kids, but I’m not ready to permanently close the baby-factory. Not looking to get my tubes tied or for hubby to have a vasectomy. I currently have a hormonal IUD.

I’ve been diagnosed about 10 years now, but only medicated for the last year or so. I sort of was stuck in survival mode and just white-knuckling life. Not great for my mental health, so now I’m trying to pay attention and actually work with my brain.

I know there’s been more studies and acknowledgement that hormones affect adhd. I try and keep track of my cycles to see if there’s a correlation between mood/productivity and my cycles. But a snag I’ve been running into, is that with my iud I don’t have regular cycles that I can track. I will go months between periods, or have spotting for a day and I don’t know if that’s a period or not.

I’ve been contemplating switching birth control to one that gives me an actual cycle. Definitely not a pill, but maybe one of the rings you put in for 3 weeks and take out for a week to have a period (Nuvaring or Annovera). I’ve used them before with success.

But is this me just being crazy? I feel a little crazy. Is there another way to figure out my invisible cycles? Or should I just suck it up?

26F , recently diagnosed with ADHD and Anxiety. I also have an autoimmune condition called Hashimotos Thyroditis. Is there a correlation between ADHD , anxiety and Autoimmune conditions. I haven't started ADHD and Anxiety meds yet but I take thyroid medication everyday without fail . Does these conditions make my Thyroid worse if I don't use anxiety and ADHD meds . Do people with ADHD and Anxiety have a higher tendency to develop Auto immune conditions?

I,(31F), was diagnosed with ADHD last July after a long and frustrating years of batting with my metal health and trying to feel “normal”. My mom, brother and some others in my family were medicated for it and said it was life changing. I tried therapy which was fine but didn’t seem to really help any of the symptoms I was experiencing. I felt burnt out from the second I woke up, never able to focus or finish any task, I was irritable and impatient, everything I did felt like a million pounds to get the motivation to do. It got to the point where I would stay up so late so the next day of tasks wouldn’t come as fast. I was never present, just consumed by thoughts and it was affecting me every single day and getting worse, I would do something and guilt myself all day because I couldn’t get away from my brain. I truly felt like a prisoner to myself. Things weren’t bringing me joy anymore, I had no motivation. I kept attributing my symptoms back to “this must be normal because i’m a mom now, and i’m overwhelmed, it’ll pass”. Parenting was becoming so hard and I felt like my kids and my husband wasn’t getting the version of me they deserved. I finally broke down and went to see a psychiatrist who tested me for ADHD and started me on 10mg XR Adderall, I was not on any medication to begin with so I was hesitant but needed to try something.

Fast forward a year on the medication - and it’s been the most rewarding and eye opening year of my life. I’ve picked up so many hobbies I enjoy, I feel like myself, I’m happy and so much more patient. I’m focused, I enjoy tidying my home and doing things with my family and have the patience to do so along with the joy while doing it. I’m fully present in the moment thinking about what I’m doing, instead of all the background noise. It has changed my life for the better and I get emotional when I think about how long I was living in this state and not enjoying life. since being on the medication, I’ve lost almost 40 pounds. It was unintentional, and I wasn’t unhappy with my weight before. I’ve gravitated toward healthy foods accidentally, and don’t boredom eat. I’ve never been a big portion person so my portions have always been small but I never lost my appetite since starting the meds, I still eat, just less and my job is very active, i’m on my feet all day long. My brain is tamed now and my mental health is thriving. I’ve brought this up to my doctor because at one point I was considering getting off the meds worried and insecure about the weight loss but she insisted this is very common for people who treat their mental health, and losing weight due to a happier brain is a result. eventually I would like to only take it as needed but I feel the best I ever have physically and mentally and I keep getting comments regarding my weight loss almost all the time and it makes me so insecure. I’m just living life. it’s gotten to the point where I am so insecure and tired of hearing negative or concerned comments, sometimes even positive but anytime I see someone haven’t seen in awhile, i’m worried they’re going to say something. It’s become such a worry of mine and typically it’s something along the lines of “are you losing more weight?” or “why do you look so thin, are you okay? how much weight have you lost?”. i’m torn because i’m trying so hard to eat more and keep weight ON. it’s a struggle for me and im working at it to be the healthiest I can, along with weighing to make sure im maintaining. Help 😔

52yo, both kids have it, sister has it, mom likely had it, and it never occurred to me until talking with my kids a few years ago that I could have it bc I was good in school, could sit still, etc etc.

Perimenopause has caused the wheels to come off the bus and I finally made the appointment. After the assessment, the doc looked at me and was like, “Yeah, so you definitely have adhd.” I’m starting on Strattera first to see if it helps. Fun times.

Apologies if there are any misunderstandings and grammatical issues with my English.

This is gonna be a long ahh story and there might be confusion due to of grammatical issues and repeated words and I apologise for that. I'm from a different country.

I couldn't really remember and recall the issues I have been facing that is ADHD-related, but I'll try my best to explain.

I'm 18M and I started to think that I might have ADHD when I was 16 because looking at the ADHD memes and feeling related and being told if I have ADHD by online users when playing video games because of how dense I am every time trying to pay attention in the game. Not only these are the reasons why I feel I might have ADHD, it's also because of the problems that I'm facing when I was a kid and then throughout Primary and High-School and even till now after graduation from High-School, I'm still having the same problems when I reach adulthood.

I don't really remember a lot of things when I was a kid, but I was told that I was hyperactive kid that couldn't stop banging my head onto the wall, I don't remember how long I was hyperactive until I feel like it stopped when I reached 13 and on my first day in High-School. I was pretty much feeling hyperactive when I'm in Primary School, but I communicate less and not only that, but I'd also get abysmal grades every on every each grade throughout school, and I'd always getting looked down and turned away by many students because of how I couldn't pay attention in class, being slow and being a weirdo, maybe related to hyperactivity? Couldn't know if it's always but I'd keep sleeping during class and I got slapped by a teacher for it too. I feel like I'm not conscious at all throughout school, I feel like I'm in autopilot at that time. I think this is all I know during Primary School.

When I'm on my first day in High-School, I became quiet person like introverted and started to have maladaptive daydreaming and then few months later on my first year in HS, I fell into depression because of having terrible with grades, hard to learn and understand, being slow just like the same issues I'm having since I was a kid but now a teenager and except the hyperactivity. As years went by on everg other grade, I keep having terrible grades on my exams. I'm having issues to concentrate and then having problems trying to study even though I have tried many times when trying to remember, I still couldn't learn anything. Life in High-School is just lonely and feeling pathetic with myself to be honest. I get looked down and turn away by my classmates and other students because of how weird, slow and useless I am. I did try to make friends but couldn't succeeded because I couldn't communicate a lot and couldn't be useful during group projects. I don't know if being useless on group projects is ADHD related because during group projects, I do nothing and then being slow. I also don't talk much to other classmates because all I do in class throughout HS is daydreaming even hyperfocus on making fantasies in my head and then make doodles on the table when I'm bored as hell.

When I reach 16, that's when get to know about ADHD through social media and then from games. I feel related to some info's about ADHD because people with this it couldn't concentrate, having a hard time starting a task and then completing it, failing exams in school. Months later, I went to a psychiatrist with my uncle and mother to know if I have ADHD. I was told by my psychiatrist that I have a little ADHD, but I needed to do an evaluation and then put a schedule. The psychiatrist also gives some medication I don't even know what it is. I got upset and then in denial suddenly after being told I have some symptoms for ADHD and being scheduled for an evaluation. I refuse to go for the evaluation even though people convince me to go and this is one of my biggest regret because years later in school, I get worse by having abysmal grades, frustration a lot because facing negativity in class by other students, paying attention and then couldn't learn anything just like in Primary School. Sometimes I just fall into depression because of that. I'd constantly having daydreaming that led to overthiking and onto depression until present.

I manage to pass with decent grades on my entrance exam in my final grade of High-School for the first time in my life after getting horrible grades throughout Primary and High school.

I'm right now 18. I am still having is maladaptive daydreaming. I always hyperfocus on my fantasies and then it leads to overthiking into depression sometimes and then it triggers my urges to relieve my addictions by having sexual fantasies maybe because of facing loneliness and frustration. Everytime I daydream, I'd always become forgetful and losing my valuable items just like my life in High-School before graduation and I don't know if I'm like this in Primary School. I feel frustrated and irritated when trying to start a task but guilty for not completing the task and also feeling frustrated for delaying task. I don't know if I could survive college with this problems I'm facing.

I think this all I know about. I'm just curious if I do have ADHD or its just something else.

I highly suspect I have and undiagnosed ADHD but also highly doubt it.

I feel like what am I writting about isn't ADHD-related but a rant about my life.

Firstly, I'm not completely sure if it's ADHD OR depression. I feel that it's more ADHD, though I can be wrong. For a long time, like at least a year, I've been highly unmotivated to better myself. Things feel 'heavy' per se. Like being unable to climb up a steep hill. I really seem to lack the energy to do that much. It's only when I'm FORCED that I will do whatever task I need to do. It's funny that lately I've been having ambitious ideas. Like about changing the world by finding clean energy and finally changing my life for the better. Note that I have a history of psychosis. It was all in my head. All I want to do is lay in bed and be on my phone. I am kinda addicted to my phone. I am on various meds that are SUPPOSED TO give me energy and motivation. They don't. I'm on Vyvanse, Wellbutrin, Antipsychotic (iloperidone), and I recently started effexor. The other day, I swore that my depression was finally cured as well. That wasn't true, it seems. How do I increase my mental and physical energy? Is it what I eat as well?

Recently got diagnosed and I have so much questions.

Bear with me sorry.

1. Im sleepy all the time. Whether I get 8 hours of sleep, 10, 5, 0 im sleepy. I don't know if thats ADHD but I gen want to sleep like all the time.

2. How can I help myself get to a certain routine? Like.....I wanna get back to working out but like once its disrupted I can never go back.

3. How can I focus in class? My doctor keeps delaying giving me meds but like its because this is the first time ive gotten checked and ive been struggling lowkey.

4. My mom is open to the whole ordeal but its hard to explain to her about certain things I have. And I can't find the words to explain it to her or sources to help her understand.

5. Ok a bit embarrassing but hypersexuality....I heard its a common trait and lowk Im kinda ashamed to admit it.....

6. Last one, any unhinged hacks I gen need it. I've tried timing myself or making life a competition but I genuinely lose motivation often.

Hello, I've suspected I have ADHD for years now, but was never diagnosed.

I was only diagnosed with OCD two years ago, and periodic anxiety with episodes of depression when I was a teen. I am only given meds when these episodes happen, but nothing for my other problems with OCD and my suspected ADHD.

It's important to know I live, essentially, in the third world.

Last week at therapy, after I vented my recent issues, my therapist said some people are born neurodivergent like people with autism and ADHD, so my brain is just built different. At the end of the session I asked if there's meds that can help me, she said ADHD meds. I asked if I have ADHD and she said that she doesn't like saying diagnoses because people obsess over them. Also that I have to work the issues without meds anyway, since they are illegal in my country and there is no way to get treatment for ADHD.

On one hand I an relieved to know I had it all this time and was right. On the other hand I am furious because I dropped out of my first uni after 4 years of failing classes, and recently lost my job from my inability to focus and work when told to do so. I have all of ADHD symptoms. And I lost so many years of my life with no help, and I still can't get help.

I don't know if there is a way to deal with ADHD without meds, because I can't get and and was told that I need to learn to live with this and deal with it without meds. I am both validated, but more lost than ever.

I just wonder…. Not even diagnosed myself, but started to learn about masking and it really got me re-think my current direction in life that obviously never suited well for me.

Would like to hear more on how you felt with your life after realizing you have ADHD?

Ever since I was a kid, I always knew I was different from all the other kids. I never understood why, but it was apparent to me and others. I did my best to hide it as best as possible but it never worked. I started being told how weird my mannerisms are, my hobbies, speech, etc. I then started to force myself to act more “human” or “normal”, I don’t know. I feel like my feelings and emotions don’t match others or what it’s supposed to be and I don’t know if it’s ADHD or something else entirely.

I’m treated very differently from family members that have ADHD too, even though I copy their mannerisms as best as I can. I started learning more about “normal” things women like and dressing like them as well. I can’t help my hyperactivity and lack of shutting up, but I do my best to make it look cute and adorable. However, it’s like they know I’m different and I don’t know what I’m doing wrong.

Does anyone else have these experiences? Should I talk to someone about it or is this just the average ADHD experience?

I’m scared of getting judged by a psychiatrist. I keep hearing “everyone has ADHD nowadays” and I don’t want to waste their time when they could be helping people who have it worse than me.

My friend has expressed serious concerns after her boyfriend got diagnosed and she said i sound familiar so i needed to get this off my chest before i freak out. Please be very honest.

Here’s why I think I might have it:

**1.**I’m noticeably different in conversations sometimes I’m way behind and can’t keep up, other times I can guess what someone’s going to say before they finish.
**2.**I have intense smell sensitivity. Once in class I smelled something off a classmate and had to run to the bathroom to throw up , no disrespect meant, I just had zero control over it. I’m also a picky eater and my hunger cues are broken: either I feel nothing until I’m starving, or I have no appetite at all.
**3.**I maladaptive daydream constantly, even skipping real plans just so I can “fit” people into my daydreams instead, because I struggle to express myself in actual social situations.
**4.**My brain feels like it’s running at 4x speed , too many thoughts per minute to consciously keep up with ,and my mood swings can be brutal.
**5.**I can’t just do basic sequential tasks (shower, eat, leave) like other people seem to. My brain has to do whatever it wants first, and I can’t override it. It’s left me with basically no self-control or confidence.
**6.**Sound in public has always messed with my focus. Noise-canceling headphones genuinely changed things for me.
**7.**People describe me as “chill,” “cool,” “smooth” socially, but that’s not at all how it feels on the inside.
**8.**I can’t hold eye contact. If I try, I get so focused on maintaining it that I stop listening.

Please note that i mean absolutely zero disrespect with this and i respect everyone that has been though any mental health condition i also struggle with anxiety and i hope everyone gets the respect and recognition they deserve.

To preface, I have scanned through the previous sub Reddit’s but still thought it might be useful to ask this question again directly. My ADHD symptoms are so much better on Vyvanse, but my sleep is probably the symptom that has been dysregulated. With the overall benefits I get from Vyvanse. I really don’t want to stop it, but wanted to see if people had similar issues and what they did.

I take my Vyvanse really early in the morning, so I know it should have weaned off well before my bedtime. I also take medication’s for anxiety. For some time now, I have seen that I have more trouble drifting off to sleep. Once , if I was tired, it could take less than a few minutes for me to be able to go to sleep but now if I don’t listen to the very, very faint whisper of sleep by a certain time, I could be up into the wee hours of the morning and will have to reach the point of pure exhaustion to be able to get myself to sleep. I have had a lot of high anxiety high stress changes in my life, but I’m unsure if that is solely responsible or if anyone has had issues like this on this medication. Particularly because my anxiety surrounding my life changes is much better managed on my anxiety medication so I cannot understand why the insomnia would linger purely for that reason.

Secondly, I’m curious what works for you guys? If you have had insomnia issues that is. Between melatonin, magnesium, supplementation and other amino acid multivitamin supplementation anecdotes out there. I just want to know if there is one in your experience you found a big difference with.

Thanks all !!

Hi, I'm new (f41)

So I have ADHD. It was excruciatingly obvious to me recently, probably brought on more strongly by menopause. I still suspect I may land somewhere on the autism spectrum as well but I haven't officially done that assessment yet although the referral is in the works. Sprinkle in a dash of potential mood disorder of some kind for a little razzle dazzle.

As the title says I'm relieved to finally have a diagnosis and that I'm working towards other diagnoses as well.

I am excited because treatment might actually make my life better. 🤞🏻 (My life's not bad but you know what I mea, it's frustrating at times.)

But here I am one day after being diagnosed and it's starting to hit me like a ton of bricks that there is officially "something wrong with me". Of course I don't think so negatively about anyone else who says they have ADHD or any other mental health issue for that matter. I'm just really self-conscious looking back at my life and wondering if people could tell something was "different" about me. And I'm looking ahead wondering how having this information will affect my personality and interactions with other people.

Oh and there's a couple of tics that I do that I've been able to hide from everyone my whole life. Today they have been very prominent. I think it's been months since last time I had them (mostly a jaw clenching, teeth grinding impulse). Has anyone had a flare up of this sort of thing after receiving a diagnosis?

I guess I just wanted to vent to folks who would understand and maybe receive some advice and encouraging words.