r/WritersSanctuary

--Was it right for me to be mature at young that age?

--Isn't a child sould be carefreey,happy?

--Why do i needed to be strong?

--Why they didn't let me go to the park in childhood for bi cycling and now they taunt me i don't know anything?

--Why they didn't let me go anywhere and didn't let me frnds with the people i like ,and now why they taunt me that i am an introvert and don't go out of this house?

--Why i only receive gifts when i achive ranks in my school everytime?

-- did i mistook gift for affection?

--Isn't they should give me it anyways sometimes without any achievement?

-- can't they love me when i didn't achive rank?

--They are family right?

--So why my brother decided to leave this family without looking at me?....

--Why he promised me that he will give the world to me....when he just didn't come or did anything when i was at my most breaking point?

--And now why he is so concerned that i don't call him and miss him?

--I helped my sister with everything she needed with moving out but why she didn't tried to contact me ever again and after that she said i am the favourite child?..

--Why i wanted to be frnds with people when i know they were selfish?

-- why i wanted to be heared atleast for one time ?

-- why only i have to compromise with my empty desk?

--why i help everyone so selflessly?

--why people promise when they can not full fill?

--Why i let go of my kindness to them and only recieve hurt ?

--Why everyone around me so selfish that they empty my emotions for healing them selfs then forget?

--Why they call me that i am serious now and not talk too much ?.when they never listen when i talked?

--Did i even mattered?

--Why my safe home feels like an illusion that everyone see?

--Why my expectations are zero from everyone?

--Why i already made my mind that a new person will eventually go from my life so don't put muvch effort?

--And why do i put efforts anyways after think i will choose myself this time ?

---People have hurted me for many things...

--Why i can't hurt them back?

--Why i always cry at night trying to pat my head and have puffi eyes in the morning with craked voice?

--For once why i can't be heartless ?

--Does heart matter anymore when it always get hurt here there?

--For once why i am not able to be selfish over selfless?

--Why i can not hurt the people the same way they hurted me

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--Why i am just silent and smile and let them go?

--Why i draw and write about some faceless man abt love?

--Does he even exists?

--Why loving myself make me feel week to my bones when i simply give everyone speeches to be happy?

--Why was the world is this cruel to me?

--I am just a teen ..

--And last of all...if i find the person whom i should love...what's the possibility he will love me back?

--Am i scared of love?

--Or worst am i scared of being someone's second love when he will be mine first?

---Why the people were so hurtfull towards me when i don't even pluck flower thinking it might hurt it?

--I was just a child ...wanted to be loved...not be strong...maybe?

--Was i ever a child?

--- yesterday i got to know that may be i am in love with a person...but after reading abt him i just wanted to heal him first..why?

---it's my love i can be a bit selfish right...why i wanna heal something that i didn't broke?...but i just want him to be happy maybe loving him from far away...or helping him to heal and so he can choose his love of life someone else

--Why he was kind to me..i am basically a stranger right?

-- why he is like me?

-- he should atleast have recieved happiness unlike me.......

I was just a child who wanted to be happy not to be strong.

Hs....