
r/WritersSanctuary

Some unanswered questions of mine !!!
--Was it right for me to be mature at young that age?
--Isn't a child sould be carefreey,happy?
--Why do i needed to be strong?
--Why they didn't let me go to the park in childhood for bi cycling and now they taunt me i don't know anything?
--Why they didn't let me go anywhere and didn't let me frnds with the people i like ,and now why they taunt me that i am an introvert and don't go out of this house?
--Why i only receive gifts when i achive ranks in my school everytime?
-- did i mistook gift for affection?
--Isn't they should give me it anyways sometimes without any achievement?
-- can't they love me when i didn't achive rank?
--They are family right?
--So why my brother decided to leave this family without looking at me?....
--Why he promised me that he will give the world to me....when he just didn't come or did anything when i was at my most breaking point?
--And now why he is so concerned that i don't call him and miss him?
--I helped my sister with everything she needed with moving out but why she didn't tried to contact me ever again and after that she said i am the favourite child?..
--Why i wanted to be frnds with people when i know they were selfish?
-- why i wanted to be heared atleast for one time ?
-- why only i have to compromise with my empty desk?
--why i help everyone so selflessly?
--why people promise when they can not full fill?
--Why i let go of my kindness to them and only recieve hurt ?
--Why everyone around me so selfish that they empty my emotions for healing them selfs then forget?
--Why they call me that i am serious now and not talk too much ?.when they never listen when i talked?
--Did i even mattered?
--Why my safe home feels like an illusion that everyone see?
--Why my expectations are zero from everyone?
--Why i already made my mind that a new person will eventually go from my life so don't put muvch effort?
--And why do i put efforts anyways after think i will choose myself this time ?
---People have hurted me for many things...
--Why i can't hurt them back?
--Why i always cry at night trying to pat my head and have puffi eyes in the morning with craked voice?
--For once why i can't be heartless ?
--Does heart matter anymore when it always get hurt here there?
--For once why i am not able to be selfish over selfless?
--Why i can not hurt the people the same way they hurted me
?
--Why i am just silent and smile and let them go?
--Why i draw and write about some faceless man abt love?
--Does he even exists?
--Why loving myself make me feel week to my bones when i simply give everyone speeches to be happy?
--Why was the world is this cruel to me?
--I am just a teen ..
--And last of all...if i find the person whom i should love...what's the possibility he will love me back?
--Am i scared of love?
--Or worst am i scared of being someone's second love when he will be mine first?
---Why the people were so hurtfull towards me when i don't even pluck flower thinking it might hurt it?
--I was just a child ...wanted to be loved...not be strong...maybe?
--Was i ever a child?
--- yesterday i got to know that may be i am in love with a person...but after reading abt him i just wanted to heal him first..why?
---it's my love i can be a bit selfish right...why i wanna heal something that i didn't broke?...but i just want him to be happy maybe loving him from far away...or helping him to heal and so he can choose his love of life someone else
--Why he was kind to me..i am basically a stranger right?
-- why he is like me?
-- he should atleast have recieved happiness unlike me.......
I was just a child who wanted to be happy not to be strong.
Hs....