This cycle is breaking me.
I am a 40 year old male and have suffered from episodic Cluster headache since I was 24 years old. My cycles happen generallyonce every 2 years, beginning almost always in February and lasting until about April or May. This year has been different. It is now June, and I am still getting attacks. I have taken several rounds of prednisone and every time the dose decreases or I run out they come back. Sumatriptan is helpful and will generally successfully abort an attack, but you can only use so much of it and only so often. My last 6 doses of nasal suma lasted me about 10 or 12 days. I don't use it consecutively because it wears me out the next morning if I do and I don't want to make things worse with rebound headaches although I think that might be happening anyway. Thi gs have progressed from having one cluster headache attack a night and then getting to go back to sleep once I suffer through it to now literally every time I lay down to sleep an hour later I will wake up with an aura that progresses into a full blown attack and then when I lay down after that it happens AGAIN. And again.
I saw my GP yesterday to schedule an appointment with a neurologist and get an MRI and he wrote me a prescription for Nurtec which is a migraine medicine and isn't going to do shit for me. I wrote him a couple of messages describing in greater detail what is actually happening to me and the mechanism behind it and haven't heard back yet but I am not hopeful. Normally these fucking things will have gone away by now but this time they haven't and I there is no way in hell I am going to be able to just suffer through this repeatedly every night, with zero sleep, for weeks or even months waiting on an overbooked neurologist to see me. I am at work right now after having attacks all night last night and am feeling extremely, terribly desperate. It is getting to the point where I am afraid it will begin to debilitate me. The sleep deprivation alone is making me feel fuzzy, unstable, and crazy to say nothing of the excruciating pain and stress. I just don't know what the hell to do, but I absolutely had to clarify to the GP what was going on because frankly I don't have the capacity to fuck around with a god damned migraine medicine when what I probably need is a nerve block or oxygen, both of which I asked for specifically. I would never go through with it, but this cycle being especially brutal has me thinking the otherwise unthinkable at times. God damn I just want them to go away....