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Drunk me, at 15, with a couple homies

A homie passed me a dmt cart

Before asking I ripped it, hard, I thought it was a thc cart, I took the longest hit you can get out of it, i blinked the pen.

I was suddenly in all black, floating, each and every bone in my body broke, then turned into dust

I felt each individual sensation 

And then I was yanked, thrown, blasted, through a body of water that ripped every particle from my body 

My ego latched on to one 

This lasted days, of pain, suffering, the most unimaginable unpleasant thing you can think of, multiply that by infinity. 

And suddenly I was in darkness, complete darkness, a voice spoke to me, reassured me, told me I had died and it was okay, and she’d take care of me until I passed on. 

I said okay, i waited there for 573,382,923 years, 6 months, 22 days and 38 minutes, all to look at was a clock in a foreign language, telling me how much time had passed, I felt every minute of those years. 

She grew cold. The voice, and one day she left, because she couldn’t fix me she couldnt get me to leave, i spent eons more in that place until one day I did something impossible, I was a particle but somehow I was experimenting with matter 

She saw this, I was pushed back through that body of water, my body was reconstructed, atom by atom, I again felt everything, this felt the opposite though, the reconstruction was euphoric, not painful. this took days, exactly how long it took for me to get torn down to a particle. 

When I got back to that party, I took the cart with me and walked out with my phone, 3 eighths, a pipe and a lighter. All mine- they were in my pockets before I caused a scene in the bathroom and almost died

My homies was boutta call 911, but I woke up, and I didn’t say a word, I didn’t know them, I just knew I was alive again, I walked with what I had and threw that cart over the side of a highway bridge. I don’t know why I did, I don’t know why I even took it with me

Then I went and sat at the foot of a lake, for 2 days, finished the weed, pieced together who I was again, I forgot my name. I spent so long there. 

That was my experience. it’s caused me ptsd and anxiety and a lot of other symptoms insomnia 

My baseline is half a billion years of age, I feel like this every day. I haven’t told anyone. 

i am 18 years of age now.
i feel older than anyone could imagine. every day is so fast and slow at the same time, nothing feels, right. it hasnt forever.

So I am no astrologer but as I get more into magic it seems like you more or less need some understanding of astrology for a lot of magic out there. So I have been doing research and I have learned the difference between tropical and sidereal astrology and it seems to me that sidereal would be more accurate. (Mind you I am just talking about the planetary calculations not western vs vedic, as far as I can tell, you can use sidereal calculations and apply vedic or western interpretations to it)

Anyone out there using sidereal calculations for ritual timing etc.? Do you feel like it works better or worse? Does anyone have arguments against it?

Honestly, over the last week I’ve been diving into the very surface level of occultism, and I’ve been enjoying it a lot.

I’ve genuinely started trying to understand things: magic, demonolatry, spirits, practice, all of it. I’m not just reading for aesthetics or because it sounds edgy. I’m actually trying to approach it seriously.

Then a demonolater recommended Initiation into Hermetics by Franz Bardon to me.

So I decided to read it.

And when I got to the parts about levitation and things like that, I’ll be honest: I became pretty skeptical.

I know skepticism is common. I know people will say you have to go much deeper before you really understand or believe these things. And maybe they are real. Maybe I’m just too early in the process to judge.

But man, you have to admit that for someone who is just beginning, that kind of thing can be really off-putting. No matter how open-minded I try to be, some of it just sounds impossible.

Right now I’m in this weird place between believing and not believing.

So I’m asking someone here, for the love of whatever exists on the astral plane: can anyone give me some kind of proof?

Please, no answers saying that needing proof is exactly what’s holding me back. I understand that mindset, but that’s not really what I’m asking for.

Can someone please show me, in some way, that magic is actually real?

It doesn’t have to be levitation. It doesn’t have to be dramatic. Show me in your own way. Tell me what convinced you. Tell me what happened that made you stop doubting.

And please don’t be too harsh on me lol. I’m not here to mock anyone. I’m kind of believing already, because I’ve had some personal experiences that felt very different from ordinary thoughts or imagination.

I just don’t know how much of this is real, how much is misunderstood, and how much is straight-up charlatanism.

So this may be a long post. I apologize if this is too much information. But we've tried researching and we still don't know what she couldv'e done. My partner and I have begun to believe that the spells his Mom did on him/his siblings and around him are still affecting him to this day. We don't know what rituals/spells she did specifically. These are the things he remembers.

She was using a lot of closed practice magic. Specifically Vudoo and goetia and probably other practices. She had a lot of books but the ones he remembers were Older Keys of Soloman, The Greater Keys of Soloman, and an old leather book that was written in what looked like Arabic. Couldn't read the title but it was something like 3 words long.

She would bathe him in animal blood, not sure what kind. She tattooed Angel names on herself/ drew them in animal blood around the house. Only ones he remembers is Michael's sigil and Arstheurgia goetia, but there were other names too.

Apparently Whenever she was doing any spells/rituals in the house a bunch of scary and odd things would start happening again. He's no contact with her now. But his whole life every time things start to head in a really positive direction something profoundly unlucky happens to him. On the other hand, she's only ever worked once for 8 months, is a drug addict, has tons of kids, and somehow always has her bills paid, has never been sent to prison for horrible things she's done, always seems to get unbelievably lucky.

It feels like whatever magic she was doing or maybe still is doing has stolen all the oppotunities, luck, whatever you want to call it, from his life. If anyone has any idea what she was doing, if theres a way to reverse it, where we can research it more, etc. Please let me know. We have no idea where to start.

As title says I may have accidentally created a cursed item. I have some issues and need advice.

Between November 2024-January 2025 I had a mice infestation. I enlisted two separate exterminator/pest control companies and neither of them could solve the problem. We usually keep a tidy home and don’t leave food out. It turns out the whole neighborhood was dealing with them.

I couldn’t leave it be; I have a daughter who was 3 at that time. Starting in December, I did research and worked hard to catch the mice. I was successful and ended up catching a few dozen over the next couple of months. It was driving me insane. This is how almost every morning went.

I would get up with the sun, kiss my wife and daughter good morning, and then have to go dispose of the caught mouse. I was using glue traps because every other type wouldn’t work. I knew these were inhumane so the first thing I did was take the mouse outside, apologize to it, and then hit it with a meat hammer from my kitchen. I always made it quick.

At one point I just had gotten all of them I think. I didn’t see anything or hear anything. I didn’t find poop or gnawed through food containers. It was peaceful.

The meat hammer was never used in the kitchen again but it hangs on the coat hook by the front door. I don’t know why I do that to myself. Lately there has been a lot of noise and rustling in the house. Exactly as the mice used to do. There have been no other signs though. I’ve attempted to catch one. I’m good at catching them. I haven’t been able to.

I’ve started thinking the hammer might be possessed by the ghosts of the mice. It’s fucking crazy but I can’t think of anything else.

Anyway what should I do with the hammer. Easy answer is chuck it I guess.

I’ve been reading reading reading and studying but have never cast an actual spell ! I know it works . I started with basic manifestation. I got my car. But I feel like what next ? I haven’t cast any spell.
Is it too much wisdom that makes me “over think things” and I end up never really doing stuff. Do I find the keys of Solomon too complex for me? There’s just too much. There’s hardly a four junction around my neighbourhood. I really don’t like my current job, I tried to start a business but sorta stuck. What exactly am I supposed to do ? What spell. I want better pay . £1k2 isnt doing anything for me.

Just advise me genuinely . Your opinion I welcome

Why does it follow me?

Sei que o propósito da evolução espiritual não tem nada a ver com bens materiais ou desejos do ego, sei também que o próprio contato com esses seres/ entidades já deveria bastar e servir como experiência divina, mas algumas coisas acontecem em nossas vidas que tiram nosso chão e muitas vezes me pergunto, eu poderia usar magia para resolver?

Ainda sou um mero estudante, cheguei agora no ars notória e sigo avançando minha leitura nesta temática, aos poucos e devagar.

Quais pedidos vocês fizeram e foram atendidos? Para quem pediram?

Hi everyone, I’m a 21-year-old newcomer, and I’m looking for some insights on a deeply specific experience that has unfolded over the past year.
Before I turned 20, I was just a casual fan of horror movies and the occult. But at 20, something shifted. I felt an intense, undeniable pull toward Lucifer. It wasn't just a surface-level interest; I felt drawn to his philosophy, history, and who he truly is. However, shortly after I started researching him, some major life accidents and stresses occurred regarding my studies and daily life. Because of that, I had to stop my research. Even though I tried to ignore it, the intense dreams and the feeling of a presence around me only grew stronger.
At first, I dismissed it as curiosity or overactive imagination. But over the last year, it has grown much stronger. I’ve started feeling distinct presences around me and sometimes feel like eyes are on me at certain moments. Recently, out of nowhere, these strong urges came back without any external trigger. I keep feeling this deep inner voice telling me, "I need to do something. I need to perform a ritual, light incense, and communicate."
What confuses me the most is that while most people naturally turn to God, Christ, or the light, my heart is being intensely pulled toward the dark side—towards entities like Lucifer and other demons. I want to clarify that I don’t have bad or malicious intentions; I have absolutely no desire to harm anyone. I consider myself a good person, yet I am profoundly drawn to this alternative path.
Early this year, after randomly looking into Lucifer's sigil again, my eyes suddenly got locked onto a completely different, non-mainstream symbol. I researched it and found out it belongs to Sitri. Since then, I’ve been experiencing a very specific feeling that is hard to put into words, but I want to clarify it to get the right advice:
It is NOT a superficial craving, a desperate longing, or being head-over-heels infatuated with him. It is absolutely NOT about being attracted to his form or wanting anything of a lustful nature with an entity. Instead, it feels like Lucifer opened the gate, but Sitri is the one calling me right now.
// please..

Has anyone ever tried the bane breaker ritual in the book of magic that works by Nineveh Shadrach?

Im curious to know.

When you perform/create magick, who is instrumental in making things happen? Are you evoking entities that supply you with the power that creates results or is it your own energy?

So i like this guy from 2 years and he used to give me hints etc it felt like he really liked me back ... But recently i confessed him he told has a gf from 1 year so he told me to let go of him ( I got a tarot reading that he still have feelings for me but sometimes hesitates because of his current relationship) he is still active like in social media he liked my notes , stories , posts etc .. so no matter what i can't move on guys i need love spells that doesn't backfire!!!!

Is the Veil thinner? Is Magick more powerful?

Is working with Her and/or worshipping her necessarily a lhp devotion? Though I’m not interested in demonolatry, I feel drawn to Her, and am trying to understand Her better through the book She of The Night. I’ve heard that she’s fundamentally demonic, but this book conflates her with the “Darkness upon the face of the Deep” in Genesis, as well as with Tiâmat.
If working with/worshipping Her is inherently lhp/demonic, what will happen after death? I’m recently ex-Christian, so I know at least a tad of that is bleeding through in this question, but will I be allowed in the Field of Rushes/paradise/granted an ok reincarnation? Any guidance, input, and resources are incredibly appreciated, especially as these questions are probably very silly to more experienced folk.

Edit:
I know these are dumb questions. I know this post is longer than it probably needs to be. I’m new to this, I’m unexperienced. Clear, practicable guidance is what I need. “Read ___” “Meditate like____”, anything to get me out of inactive cluelessness