u/--J1nx

M17, I really just want a friend online that I can talk to without them getting distant or dry. I’ve been bullied in school which made me develop social anxiety and now due to that whenever I try to converse with people I’m never able to get my feelings or what I want to say out properly. I had an online friend for years who I thought of as my brother which I vented all my struggles about having suicidal thoughts, about how school has been going for me, to the type of environment I grew up in after he encouraged me to and then he blocked me everywhere like I never meant anything to him. I grew up in a toxic and abusive household which affected me mentally and could be part of the reason why I have OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) today. I don’t want this to only be about my struggles but how I am as a person. I try to be very kind and loving and caring for others and I really just want the best for the people close to me. I LOVE Arcane (JINXXXXX!!!!) And I love watching anime, shows, games etc. although I’ve been short on time lately because I have work and school (which is another place I struggle at socially but I’m trying to manage it and find my way through since it’s my first job.) Anywaysss please reach out to me if you want to chat and I’d be able to share more about me and thank you for reading!!!

M17, I used to get bullied at school which made me develop extreme social anxiety and now whenever I try to talk to people I get extremely nervous. I grew up in a toxic and abusive household and I could wipe tears away in front of my own brother and he wouldn't even ask me if I'm okay even after sh and attempting. I really want to die and be put out of my misery as I don't really have many people I can talk to that truly care about me or know all of my struggles without batting a blind eye. My online friend betrayed me after years after he told me that I could vent to him and talk about everything with him but he just ended up blocking me and leaving me after knowing everything l've been going through and that tipped me over the edge to make an attempt. I really wish I had a someone I can talk to and be close with who wouldn't disappear and we could comfort eachothers struggles.

M17, I used to get bullied at school which made me develop extreme social anxiety and now whenever I try to talk to people I get extremely nervous. I grew up in a toxic and abusive household and I could wipe tears away in front of my own brother and he wouldn’t even ask me if I’m okay even after sh and attempting. I really want to die and be put out of my misery as I don’t really have many people I can talk to that truly care about me or know all of my struggles without batting a blind eye. My online friend betrayed me after years after he told me that I could vent to him and talk about everything with him but he just ended up blocking me and leaving me after knowing everything I’ve been going through and that tipped me over the edge to make an attempt. I really wish I had a someone I can talk to and be close with who wouldn’t disappear and we could comfort eachothers struggles.

M17 and I’m thinking that I don’t want that age to change. I really don’t feel like living anymore, I don’t really have any friends or anybody that cares about me, my family and school life has been toxic and I’ve always gotten bullied throughout school which made me develop social anxiety and now I just get very nervous talking to people and ughh. An online friend recently betrayed me after years of being close and he told me I could vent to him and I told him about my fear of abdomen and how I was scared of losing him as a friend because I was always worried he was going to leave me too just like everyone else and he fake comforted me and ended up blocking me everywhere and I honestly don’t have anyone that would check up on my mental health even after cutting myself repeatedly when I look visibly distressed and don’t even have an appetite to eat anything I’m definitely not making it to 18 and I really don’t know what to do I always try to be nice to people and they just always push me down I grew up in a toxic and abusive household and got bullied all throughout school which took a huge toll on my mental health throughout the years and this summer I had a ton of time to reflect on everything and all of the bottled sadness came right back I really don’t have anyone to live for who genuinely cares about me or checks up on me to see if I’m okay I can cry visible tears and wipe them off in front of my own brother and he wouldn’t say anything and just tell me that I’m doing something wrong or something that he doesn’t like. Please talk to me if you want to.