u/-5698

The more I’ve internalized hard determinism, the harder it’s become to genuinely despise criminals, mass killers, or people society labels monsters. Not because I condone what they did, but because I increasingly see them as organisms unfolding exactly as their biology and environment dictated.

I still care about suffering. I just find hatred itself becoming harder to access.

Anyone else end up here, or did determinism leave your intuitions about blame intact?

The last time I experienced bullying was in middle school. It's been 10 years since I've seen those people, but I regularly dream about them most nights of the week. It genuinely ruins my day before it has even begun. Not a single day goes by where I don't think about them. Please tell me I'm not alone in this!!

I still stalk their social media sometimes (they are, in fact, winning). But it's creepy, so I try to stop myself. I'm sure that has something to do with it.