u/-romantycznosc

it might be very chaotic but i need advice.
i am M(20) and i am pretty much overly sensitive, probably due to ASD and ADHD. i'm not great at managing my emotions to the point where when i feel something, i become the emotion i feel atm. it bothers me but i dont really know what to do about it; im in therapy but there's so much stuff to go thru its not possible for me to go thru all of it in such a short period of time. im in a long term relationship with my bf M(20), and it bothers him a lot too, to the point where he wanted to break up with me bc of that, bc he simply cant handle it. and i dont blame him, i asked him to give me time til the end of this month to prove to him that i can get better at managing that but i really need advice. he's pretty much an avoidant, he's in therapy too, but i love him so much i just dont wanna let him go bc i know we both can get better for ourselves and each other.
how can i get better at managing the way i feel and not act out on that?

about a week ago i came back from a 4 days long trip - he was left alone at our place, and after i got back we had sex. later that week we had sex after like a 2 day break and there was generally more come in the condom than there was after i was away for 4 days. am i looking too much into it or did he really relapse? i asked him about it a few times but he keeps telling me he didnt and that he doesnt know why there was like half the amount after 4 days. it really bothers me bc we had a fight when i was away and he wouldnt text me back til the next morning even tho he was online, thats when i think he relapsed. he's supposedly 3 months clean.