Oh Caleb... 😭❤️🩹
I can't help but wonder how hard it must have been for him throughout all those years, holding and harbouring feelings for his mei mei, not being sure what to make of them and at some point even being certain that she doesn't feel the same way (he's wrong ofc)
Going as far as to promise that he'll let her go and yet, he couldn't let go of his feelings. The pain and suffucating per his own words until he couldn't keep pretending anymore. It's just ughh, chefs kiss, everything-- to love someone this much not knowing whether they feel the same way even when it's painfully clear they do but just don't know how to properly communicate at that point is, everything to me, truly
I genuinely think that his love for her is a huge part of what kept him going, even if he didn't count on them reuiniting, he still held onto his love. The fact that it's also reinforced multiple times how no one else could ever catch his interest is--- it's heavy and it's a testament to his undying devotion despite everything
idk, i'm rambling and gushing and just loving how both him and MC are a freak for each other, no matter what and i haven't been the same ever since his latest memory dropped 🥲