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We arrived in the ER this Tues. From an endoscopy they found a mass that's blocking my mom's digestive system. We are awaiting pathology results but I'm terrified of getting bad news. Digestive issues and cancer runs in her family. I feel so restless and I want the pathology to come back but at the same time I don't. My mind keeps turning to the worst possible situation and I'm not ready to lose her yet. My father and I do our best to stay positive but I'm so scared.

I guess what I want to know is if the news is that the mass is malignant, what do I do to help her? What can I do to be a better caretaker for my mom?

And what can I do to help myself and my dad? Is there anywhere I can go to talk to someone (like a counseling group..) Is there a mindset I need to adopt to help myself be just a little more positive in front of my family? If anyone has any tips please let me know.

For context: Currently I attend a public university with around maybe 10k people. It's a small town with a huge military presence. I attended this university for two years without making friends despite joining clubs and showing up to events on campus. I live with my parents still and commute to school. Most days I go to school for lectures and then come back home because the social scene is tragic. I've decided that I want to leave and go to the larger and more traditional college in my state, meaning I would live there alone.

I've told my parents multiple times that I want to leave and find somewhere that has more opportunities for me to have social connections, job openings, clubs, etc. My mom, however, is obsessed with my life and what I'm going to do in my future, despite me telling her multiple times that I feel lonely here and that I'm not living to my full potential. She thinks that I want to go to the larger school to party even though I've never gotten in trouble before. I fund school myself and I would be paying for my apartment with my own money. I'm well into adulthood and my parents still smother me and insist that I have to stay with them.

No matter how clear I make it that I'm miserable at my current college, my parents insist that I stay where I am.