Please help me do namaz regularly again. I’m so depressed
Assalamalaikum. I am a revert of a couple years now. I used to pride myself in being wonderful in keeping up with all my namaz but as of last month I’ve been so depressed that I have fallen out of doing namaz Astaghfirullah.
I feel like Allah has forgotten me. I understand everybody saying that Allah has a plan but I truly feel like I have been forgotten. When I do namaz or make dua, I feel like I’m speaking to nothingness because I have been praying for general ease (not happiness or extreme comfort, just GENERAL ease) for YEARS and yet life seems to keep getting harder with no hope.
I really want to feel motivated to trust in Allah again, get back into doing namaz, but I just feel so exhausted and depleted. It almost feels like self harm not to do namaz Astaghfirullah because at this point I just want to get life overwith and deal with Allah’s punishments and just not have hope in my namaz and duas anymore.
Please, any motivation would really help. I really want to better my faith.