u/0krizia

Hello everyone.

3 month ago my(m35) wife(f33) moved out. She was my main person, she covered all my social needs, she was my world. Now im alone and the lonleiness is killing me. Im anxious about never finding another life companion again, a best friend, someone to share my life with, to have a relationship where we take good care of each other in daily life. Anyways... chatting with someone makes me feel less alone, I had experience with that over the last weeks, but that kinda fizzled out and my lonleiness kicked in again. I'll join a conversation about anything really, talk about your day, your feeling, your special interest, talk without filters, be yourself, I welcome it. Maybe you feel lonely too and what someone to talk to? Im a really kind and caring guy, but im a bit messed now days with my life crisis going on.

Anyways... Send me a message if you want to chat :)

Ever since I was a kid, I have been drawing speakers and been fascinated with soundsystems, around 10 or so I played around with the equalizer and got hooked on how I could change the sound, once I became a teenager I started building speakers and subs. I became almost obsessed with designing loud systems, then, I moved over to designing the highest spl per volum size speaker. For 20 years I have been building and optimising. My design have become better and looking more and more proffesional (I like pro audio designs). My last system design was a pair of 6.5" woofer top speakers and a pair of small very compact dual 8" 4th order subs.

The system as a whole sounds absolutely amazing with dsp applied, handles 6700w in total (I have tested and done the mesurement), it have the same built quality and finish as the most prestigious PA brands out there.

Now every single speaker I have at home (and sub in my car), I have built myself, my "big system" which i upgraded regularly over the last 20 years bacause i wanted something better, has now met its limmit. With this final design, every time I try to think of something better my mind goes "I already have better" or "I dont need it, its nowhere I would acually use it". I dont like having a lot of stuff either, so stacking up on speakers I dont use feels messy and wastefull.

After so many years of optimising and obsessing about making the ultimate system, I reach my goal and the spark is now gone. I have nothing else to design that I need, noting that possibly have a higher spl/volume ratio.

It feels like I killed my hobby by sience the shit out of it and pushing physics to its limmit. What do I do now?

Anyone else felt this?