u/1004pancakes

y’all i am so sorry if this question is repetitive asf but i always see things about finding your soulmate within your natal chart and whatnot but that raises the question: do we think they’d actually be compatible with you astrologically? or would it all just be kinda a, “what’s there is there,” sorta thing? the concept of soulmates and astrology fascinates tf outta me and this is something that has been on my mind for a while

i’ve been studying my Chiron placement a lot (11th house, Aquarius) and I decided to take a quick look in the Aquarius section of the, “The Rulership Book” by Rex E. Bills and noticed that Aquarius rules the state I was born in (Arizona) despite me not living there anymore. I was wondering if your Chiron placement does have something to do with your birthplace since it’s something that you’re born wounded with?

i had a crush on this boy way back in the first grade lmao. he was like the second crush i’ve ever had and it was the most memorable. despite being a little kid, i already had my avoidance ways and acted like i hated him (and i mean like bullying, not proud of that) until he confronted me one day and we became friends. eventually one day, he confessed to me that he liked me and because ive always been a bit reckless, i reacted like he grossed me out and was like, “EWWW,” but idk why i did that, i literally LIKED HIM. anyway fast forward a lot to like hs and for some reason, things came rushing back on and off during these years. he stares at me a lot, follows me around and one time in the hallway, i was walking and i felt a tap on my shoulder and it was him. he didn’t say anything but tbh that’s just where it’s at. like we’ll make eye contact but we just don’t talk. another time, we were partnered together in a class project by my evil teacher and that boy fr chose to sit right next to me when he didn’t have to. no one in our group was talking (we were placed with two other people, one of which was completely checked out) and while i looked straight ahead at my computer screen and avoided eye contact, he looked over to his left where i was and did like a “once over.” like he leaned forward and tried to read what my face looked like since i wasn’t looking or talking to him.

am i delusional? is this even a crush? wtf even is this???

maybe i’m asking a dumb question but how do i know if it’s intuition or adrenaline when i’m near a crush? there’s been this guy that i’ve always been drawn to and we always went to school together but whenever i knew i liked him, id legit shake, sweat, and almost hyperventilate near him. if you like someone, shouldn’t it feel more like butterflies and less like you’re about to go to court?