I feel like such a loser over how badly I want a girlfriend
posted this on another sub but it got deleted so I'll just post it here to get my vent out ig
Ever since I was a kid, I’ve always fantasized about being in a relationship. You see it everywhere, movies, TV, music. You cannot escape it, and I wanted to experience it so bad. I remember watching my older sister go to prom and homecoming and thinking about how I couldn’t wait until I got to take a girl to prom. Then I got to that age and realized I’m a fucking loser who’s wasted his life playing video games. I don’t even have the desire to change. It’s too hard. Everything is so difficult. I just want everything to fall into my lap, but it obviously won’t. So instead I live in my own head, in my fantasies, where everything is okay and I’m happy. The worst part about all of this is that I’d want a hypothetical girlfriend to be as clueless as I am about relationships. I’m too insecure to be with a girl who’s had a boyfriend before. I'm sorry I'm such a fucking loser. I hate me too.