u/3VCoffee

So I posted twice here about my upcoming gastroscopy and my fears regarding it. Yesterday was my appointment.

I cried a lot before it started, but I took the throat spray just fine. I took conscious sedation as an option, but even with conscious sedation I was too aware. as soon as they tried inserting the endoscope I pushed them away, pulled back, basically I was in survival mode. The doctors ended up deciding that in the interest of my safety, they couldn't perform the procedure.

I was heartbroken and couldn't stop sobbing for like 40 minutes. I just want this to be dealt with, it's been a year and a half! I want to know! But now we have to wait for a second referral that (hopefully) features a request for an anesthesiologist. It seems I'm too resistant to conscious sedation, so I'll have to be fully asleep. Granted, this is what I wanted from the very start, just nobody listened to me.

Still, the nurses were great and they tried their best to calm me down when I was crying. My amazing boyfriend was also there and my god what a man he is. I felt safe throughout (although my boyfriend says I kept repeating "I was so scared" afterwards), just the tube itself scares the crap outta me.

Hopefully full sedation will do the trick. I don't think I'm scarred by the experience. I'm just angry at the world that it still isn't over yet.

A couple of months ago I posted here and on another sub saying I was afraid of getting an endoscopy. I asked for your stories just to know what to prepare for. Finally, I have my appointment. I'm still afraid (shitting my pants is a more crude but accurate description) but I'm now convinced it'll be worth it after. Plus I was promised prince treatment from my partner after so it's a win regardless.

Thanks to everyone who shared firsthand experiences. I think some folks like me would rather hear worst case scenarios to be convinced that they'll be okay. I'll do an update post after if I remember to (and if anyone is interested)

Unusual question, I know, but does anyone know where I can find the Truth Reborn musicals? Specifically looking for 1 and 3, they were on YouTube (which is how I found them circa 10 years ago) but now I can't find them anymore. Does anyone know if it's still online? They were my childhood.

So, I quit caffeine last August, and spent 6 months with absolutely no coffee whatsoever. After all that I trusted myself to stay off coffee enough that I wouldn't relapse. I'd allow myself one drink every week or two, no more.

Well, just a few days ago, I had one cup, but felt like having another. Since I used to drink two a day, I didn't think much of it and had the second one.

Within the next half an hour, my pulse became alarmingly fast, my breathing was manual and forced, and my hands were cold and tingling. I went home hoping it would stop, but two or so hours later it just kept getting worse.

Long story short, my roommates ended up having to call an ambulance on me. I made it out completely fine, thankfully, all they found was high blood pressure, which evened out over time.

But if you quit recently and wanna have a large amount of caffeine, don't. Let me, random Reddit guy, be your cautionary tale. I'm never drinking even a single cup ever again.