u/3than21

Just saw her Philly show and was really disappointed she only played for around 45 mins. Is this the norm? Kinda wack for the prices she charging

Do these dudes actually review music or is it all just Drake, Kendrick, Kanye? Was surprised there was no review of the Isaiah Rashad or Vince Staples album and got to thinking that I only ever see them comment on the biggest drops. From what I can tell the only albums they put videos out for this year has been the 3 Drake albums, Bully, and Casino. Incredibly light for how good this year has been for music

Apologies for formatting, posting from mobile.

So we’ve been together for 7 years now, engaged for the last couple of months.

About a year ago I found out inadvertently that my then girlfriend had a crush on someone at her job. I found a video on her phone of a snap she sent to her friends asking is she is reading too much into a book he had given her. The book was a children’s book about love, and in the video she says something along the lines of “this imagination of mine!” in an excited voice.

From there we had a big fight about her keeping it a secret from me and worked things out. She reassured me nothing happened, he had no idea she felt this way, and even started therapy. From there I would check in here and there just to gauge how she was feeling and she said the crush went away and that was that. Or so I thought.

Fast forward to this week, about a year later, we decide to take some psychedelics together. In the middle of the trip I get up to go to the bathroom and come out to her having a panic attack saying she needs to tell me something. Turns out she lied and the crush still remains meaning she has had a crush on him for almost 2 years, including a window where she wasn’t working or seeing him for about 4 months. Another argument ensues where she insists it’s nothing more than a crush and she loves me and wants to be with me.

On Tuesday she left for work and I read her journal. Not a proud moment. She wrote that she “appreciated the attention” and she “has a nagging feeling to clear the air. To make it clear that any flirting she may have done meant nothing. Almost to cool him off my heels. To prove to him that I am past this.”

This stopped me in my tracks. We talked about it and she insist that any flirting he may have done is her putting her own internal feelings into it. She states he actually never flirted with her directly. However, her flirting to me is concerning and acting on her crush, which she said she didn’t do. The wanting to talk with him to “cool him off her heels” also gives me the impression he is actively pursuing her, which she denies. She said she wants to talk to explain why she’s been cold to him and nothing more.

Also to note, they used to follow each other on Instagram which is a huge red flag to me. She claims she doesn’t remember if it was a “move” on her part or not. But she was the one who followed him first.

I’m lost because I love her so much, but have no idea how she could have feelings for him all this time later, even when it almost broke us up a year ago. Would you be concerned if you were in my shoes? Is this something worth leaving over?