u/666Pennywise27

Hi so a friend I met in 2019 converted to Christianity in 2025 but she was kind of Christian before too, she just barely talked about or showed it. Now when she send me snaps she constantly fidget with her cross necklace and does the cross gesture with her hand before talking to me online and I don't know how to feel. :/

Today I saw that she reposted a video titled

"When you try to convert your friend"

(this is in another language since english isn't my first language so I can't really share the video she reposted.)

and it just felt odd to me because she's also invited me to got to church eith her before, which I declined. She said it was just for hanging out but why at the church specifically unless she wanna convert me?.. Idk.

I've been away from Christianity for so long and in my past when I was 'forced' to go to church, I was never really interested in it, I just drew my silly cartoons and zoned out lol.

So like.. are Christians often expected to convert people? Is it in their doctrine to do this?/is this common for them to do this?

I know they often directly try to convert people online, and sometimes irl. But yeah.

Idk what to feel..

Oh- and now I saw 1327 from Satan as I was typing this. 😳

How do I trust/develop my intuition because he constantly tell me to listen to my inner wisdom/intuition. 😭

I just guess he want me to balance my time about something. I often don't have the energy to read 3 different web pages to find out what he might try to tell me exactly.

Do you know any good sources of Satanic "Angel numbers"? Because Satan constanly show me these "Angel" numbers with 27 in it (927, 12:27, 13:27, etc..) and I get annoyed from finding a hundreds of different (christian) meanings of it and often it just confuses me or it mentions something unrelated like "trust God's plan" or some BS when I KNOW the syncronicities come from Satan. 😑

I just know 13 has to do with Transformation/Death and 27 = 9 = Endlings/new beginnings, etc.. 13 = 4 = Strong foundations (meditation) but I feel kinda helpless if he want me to start meditating while I'm at work.

Edit: I just saw a post she reposted on Tiktok, and she went on a trip with her church group to a place last weekend that is about the history of how Christianity grew in my country basically, and she had told me earlier on snapchat that she wanted me to be there with her because she felt lonely. :/

Hi, so I was just reflecting and idk if this fits emotional neglect, but I realized that my fear of being seen/judged (both positively and negatively) makes me lie to myself that people can't percieve me even when I have a conversation with them?? I think I do this so I can actually go outside and not self-isolate 24/7. I think I feel like I'm either zoning out or dissociating when I go outside and talking to others. Like I'm 90% of the time in my own head/internal world.

Part of it could be because of my past struggle with an ED ofc.

And also I'm autistic/neurodivergent, so maybe that plays a part too.

And I often withdraw when people talk to me and I have no idea why it happens.

Perhaps it's because of my gender and people disrespecting me on a regular basis too..

Can anyone relate? :')

Any tips on how I can face my fear?

Thank you.

Sorry if the title sound weird/random lol.

I'm just curious what others experience.

A month ago (April 13) I dreamt of a crow in a forest.

I was walking with some guys and they carried guns to hunt.

I and the crow made eye contact with each other.

The crow then basically attacked one of the other guys and then hid behind a curtain on a cut down tree in the forest.

Right after the dream scene changed and I became lucid, I physically felt Satan pressed against my back, flirting with me in my childhood bedroom while being sexual and the sensations then continued as I woke up too.

But I'm not going into detail. I just wonder if Satan was that crow in the dream I had just before I got lucid from feeling Satan so physically and intensely behind me.

And recently while at work, a crow calmly walked under the table at work and we accidentally spooked each other a little bit and the crow then calmly walked out of the store, even seeming to look around at the art in there.

Onto the demonic dreams from tonight

(May 13).

In the first dream I had between 10 PM - 2 AM, I dreamt I was at a grocery store and I tried to choose a protein bar to offer to Satan.

I thought that he may need/want one to get more energy to have the strength to shapeshift more easily.

I then immediately woke up and told Satan what I just dreamt about and I felt him put a hand on top of my head as soon as I told him.

After that, I aaked him with Tarot if he actually want a protein bar offering and I got The Temperance and 9 of Cups as a yes/no answer. I think it leans towards a yes for both cards so my question here is more out of curiousity if you ever offer him protein bars.

I also just wanted to share the dream because I find it a little funny lol.

In the second/last demon dream from tonight, I dreamt that some "evil" demons chased me in my childhood home and up to the bathroom.

I escaped in fear and ran to the neightbours' where a random "ghost" demon train appeared in the middle of the road.

A good helpful red demon wearing a white doctors' coat stood at the entrance of the train welcoming me and my younger brother onto the train for protection from the 'bad' demons carrying a chainsaw.

We jumped onto the train and started to hide inside a bathroom there.

But me just thinking about the 'bad' demons made them suddenly appear on the train and they found us.

So me and my brother ran into the good demons' doctor office and locked the door.

He protected us there but I'm unsure if the bad demons killed us or not. I'm not sure how to interpret this dream from a theistic Satanist perspective.

Any help? Thanks!