u/A_Rainbow_Human

I have so much to talk about and I decided you guys might be the best experts I can ask about everything.

So just for backstory, I started reading Percy Jackson and I fell in love with the story and it made me want to look into Greek gods again. I’ve done this 2 times before in the past and both times I got really into it for about a week before, being the atheist I am, just refusing to believe in any entities/gods like that. I didn’t want that to happen again so I started researching a ton to find a way to make it make sense to me and I made a theory that all entities/gods are real but exist as tulpas. There’s a lot of reasons I think this that I won’t get into (if anyone is curious though I would love to explain further) but it’s the first time everything made sense to me. All of that though made me remember that when I was much younger I made a tulpa which, as far as I can remember, was actually successful, until I parted ways with her (or erased her from my head? I don’t really know how to word it) because it was uncomfortable to me to be plural or in a system because it just felt disrespectful to people with DID.

Now that i’ve started doing research on this stuff, I understand it’s a whole different thing from DID and it’s not just people willingly having DID (back then DID was becoming somewhat of a “trend” so many people were creating tulpas to do so, which is why is made me so uncomfortable). Even now though, I would never want to have a tulpa that’s just another person in my head who fronts and such just because, personally, it still feels wrong (ofc I’m not saying that people who have tulpas who do front are wrong, it’s just that I would be uncomfortable with having a tulpa like that).

To go back to what I was saying about Greek gods, I want to “worship” a Greek god (Dionysus if anyone cares) but because I see gods as tulpas, I feel like this subreddit was the better place to go for creating a tulpa that basically exists the same way as a god does, an entity that I can just talk to in my head and get advice from but also treat with respect like you would with a god.

So I guess the biggest question I have is: how should I go about that? But I’m also wondering if anyone here has a tulpa or multiple tulpas that are similar to what I’m trying to create or even just a tulpa that doesn’t front? Basically feel free to just tell me anything that you think might help or even just share if you have a similar opinion as me when it comes to religious/spiritual entities and tulpas.

Side note: please be nice! Everyone here seems very sweet but every time I ask stuff on Reddit, especially with stuff like this, I get nervous people will tell me I’m doing everything wrong and get mad at me or something like that and I can be a bit sensitive to criticism so just be kind. Thanks so much for reading💕

I’ve taken adhd medication before (vyvanse) which did not work at all. Now I’m taking methylphenidate at 35 mg (started it yesterday) and I thought my biggest side effect was dry mouth (mostly was only a problem yesterday), until I realized both today and yesterday, I have barely been eating. It’s not that I don’t feel hungry, I can tell I am but mentally there’s no want for food at all. I’m really not used to this especially considering usually I have a big appetite and eat a ton the second I get even a little hungry (which honestly feels like another adhd thing). So yeah, it’s just a huge annoyance since the discomfort makes me a bit irritable, I’m sure it’ll get better after a while of taking the meds but even so I think it’d be good to get any tips from anyone whose gone through this (like how to get yourself to eat or feel more of a want to eat or even just personal stories without much real advice). Thanks for reading this giant blob of text and thanks even more to anyone who comments💕