
I had genuinely the worst hookup of my life. Ft Human Kibble
I’ve posted a few times here before about struggling with my sexuality and shit but yeah. I’m bi with a heavy preference to women but I still feel like I HAVE to sleep with men every so often just to prove that I’m still worthy of love (grew up homophobic Christian). Also sorry this is so long, I’m just irked. My dinner was ground beef with rice and I put broccoli in it that was still cold despite being steamed in the microwave for damn near 10 minutes.
So I met this guy on Tinder and we were gonna hook up. I should’ve known it was gonna be bad when we were talking before we even decided to meet up, because he said he doesn’t eat pussy. And his whole attitude around sex was very “alpha male” coded but there aren’t many hot guys in my area or any gay women and I was desperate. I show up to his house, and his first offense is that there is zero and I mean ZERO furniture in his living room. It’s just a weightlifting bench.
He does some bare minimum small talk, and doesn’t even offer me a glass of water. I grew up with southern-level hospitality and I won’t let someone be in my house for more than 2 minutes before offering a drink. Water, soda, juice, whatever. I’m not offered shit. But wtv, perhaps he grew up without manners.
His second offense is that his bed is in the middle of the room, not touching any walls. There is a bed frame however, so I’m happy about that. And his sheets are those fuckass navy blue sheets that are like a t shirt texture?? And he turns on White Chicks. Why are you fucking me to White Chicks. He starts wordlessly making out with me, but however he is missing my mouth and is instead making out with my nose. I try to kinda guide him down a lil bit, but nope, just mouth and tongue in my nose. Cute. Love that.
He wordlessly strips and like gestures for me to do the same. Mind you, when making out with me, I didn’t get a SOUND from him. Not even a groan, not a whisper of “you’re so fucking hot.” At this point I’m questioning why I’m still here but I’m having a sunken-cost fallacy moment so like fuck it we ball and I just gotta see it through. He looks at me and goes “you gon suck it?” And at this point I’m starting to get genuinely irritated but there’s something in me that doesn’t let me bail on shit until I’m genuinely miserable. And he’s ginormo so I already know giving head is going to be a challenge but I do my best. Third offense and I already wanna bail.
Anyways I don’t get a LICK of foreplay from this man and it hurt. A lot. Couldn’t even get it in, and at some point I ask him to pause and at least like finger me a lil, and I get 30 seconds of the most mid fingering ever. It felt like I was getting a fucking pelvic exam from a suicidal gynecologist who has been in the profession for decades. He tries again to fuck me and I am in so much pain and he is AGAIN DEAD SILENT. I’m like audibly saying “ow” and hissing and giving every possible signal short of screaming “YEOUCH!!!”
He finally gets off me to reposition and I had to look him in the eye and say “I actually hate this, I’m going home.” And I pulled on my clothes and shoved my bra and panties in my bag, and went home.
This was like 2 weeks ago and I was sore for a week and it hurt to pee for 3 days. And mind you, he made me bleed.
TL;DR: I had horrendous sex and bailed after like 10 minutes. If you decide you hate a hookup before even hooking up, just go home. Don’t force yourself to go through with it.