Emotional Burn Out
How are you all coping with feeling emotionally dead afterwards? I was in a high intensity, emotionally enmeshed, long distance (we met up multiple times), situationship where we were only ever “emotionally and physically exclusive”.
I poured every ounce of myself into the person, was more patient and understanding than anyone ever should be, and more forgiving than anyone should be. It ended with her ending the exclusivity and immediately turning to dating and sleeping with other men.
She came back months later but only to breadcrumbs and now she is ready to commit and is in a full-fledged relationship.
Since it ended in September…I have been on a dozen or so first dates and each time I know am coming off as emotionally muted, guarded, and just not my best self. I want to marry and have kids…I am 35 now and turn 36 this year.
I’m just so emotionally burnt out at this point. Exhausted still. How have you all been coping; those of you months, even years out?
I think about her every day, still. I no longer miss her, per se, she treated me like shit and admitted to it. She was selfish, manipulative, and a gaslighter. But it was the most meaningful and romantic love that I have felt in my life. It’s terrible that it was only one-sided.
Idk what to do anymore.