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I have been trying to get back to studying (I ignored my education for over a year and now am scrambling to get back on my feet), but every day I am plagued with anxiety and self-hatred the moment I don’t understand a thing.

It’s so debilitating and disheartening, when I know I would have otherwise enjoyed my degree. But every time I open up my textbook, I am assaulted by thoughts of how stupid and worthless I am.

It’s been so hard to keep going, and I have almost zero hope, but I don’t know what else to do with myself.

I feel like a total failure. That I’m not going to serve society in any tangible way, and that I’ll just be a waste of everyone’s time and effort.

I can’t even reach past 4 hours, and I only have three days that I exceeded past 3 hours.

If I’m not built for academia, I don’t know what other purpose I can have.

I am constantly anxious that I’ll be expelled, since I haven’t had attendance for such a long time. My status is still okay, but I really need to contact my university. But then say what? That I’m a useless dumbass who can’t even study?

My study method probably sucks too. And my attention span.

I am self-studying intro-level statistics, and I cannot understand the intuition behind this formula.

From my understanding, what we do is order our observations from smallest to largest, then pair the biggest with the smallest, the second biggest with the second smallest, and so on.

We find the difference within each pair, then multiply them by a coefficient (a) and sum the result, square the sum, and divide it by total sample variation.

The coefficients themselves are based on the standard distance the observations would have if they were from a perfectly normal distribution, based on the number of our observations.

My problem starts here.

I understand how the coefficients represent the proportions that we expect to see from a normal distribution between each pair. That said, I don’t understand how multiplying our pairs by these coefficients gives us any clue as to how aligned or misaligned our sample is from the standard normal distribution.

The division also doesn’t make much sense to me, since it implies that the squared sum of our data is somehow another measure of variation.

I hope I articulated my problem correctly,

Any help would be appreciated.

I am self-studying intro-level statistics, and I cannot understand the intuition behind this formula

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From my understanding, what we do is order our observations from smallest to largest, then pair the biggest with the smallest, the second biggest with the second smallest, and so on.

We find the difference within each pair, then multiply them by a coefficient (a) and sum the result, square the sum, and divide it by total sample variation.

The coefficients themselves are based on the standard distance the observations would have if they were from a perfectly normal distribution, based on the number of our observations.

My problem starts here.

I understand how the coefficients represent the proportions that we expect to see from a normal distribution between each pair. That said, I don’t understand how multiplying our pairs by these coefficients gives us any clue as to how aligned or misaligned our sample is from the standard normal distribution.

The division also doesn’t make much sense to me, since it implies that the squared sum of our data is somehow another measure of variation.

I hope I articulated my problem correctly,

Any help would be appropriated.

I am relatively fine during the day, but as it turns dark, I start panicking and my self-loathing intensifies tenfold. I don’t understand why my nights have turned so miserable, but they cause me to be sleep-deprived, which makes me to also wake up late, which makes my days shorter and nights longer.

It’s so exhausting and it’s disrupting my very fragile improvement efforts.

I am relatively fine during the day, but as it turns dark, I start panicking and my self-loathing intensifies tenfold. I don’t understand why my nights have turned so miserable, but they cause me to be sleep-deprived, which makes me to also wake up late, which makes my days shorter and nights longer.

It’s so exhausting and it’s disrupting my very fragile improvement efforts.