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So, I went to Germany on Erasmus in 2025 for the winter semester, during my second month there I met a girl, she was a Sagittarius sun with a Scorpio moon (I'm a Cancer sun with a Virgo moon btw). She invited me on a date and we went for coffee and then to a pub later. I’d say we clicked from the very first date. We had a second date and she invited me to her house. She cooked ramen for me, and then we kissed and she asked me if I wanted to go to her room. It was really amazing. It wasn't just sex, everything was so sweet and we actually made love. We cuddled afterwards and it was really romantic. By that point, we were already falling hard for each other.

And that’s when everything got messed up. She was always bad at texting, but she still tried to text me every day. After that second date, though, her texting became even more inconsistent, and my anxiety got worse too because I was getting attached. I talked to her about it twice and she validated my feelings, apologized, and said she would try to do better.

Context: I was originally planning to stay in Germany for one year, but during that time I realized I didn’t actually like living there and decided to go back home after the first semester.

We met again to talk about us and everything. When I told her that I was leaving after the winter semester, she tried to find solutions for me to stay, but once I told her that I just didn’t like living in Germany, there wasn’t much else to say. Then we went somewhere else, she cried and got really anxious, and I tried to comfort her and apologized. In the end, we decided we would keep dating during the time I had left there.

We had another date, and she told me she wanted me to stick around, that she wanted to give me what I deserved and also what I wanted. It was really painful because I felt like she was treating me like a LTR, and I wasn’t going to be able to give her that, even though I wanted it so badly.

Then I bought my flight and told her my departure date. After that, she became inconsistent with texting again. I knew she wasn’t taking it very well, and I understood. During our next date, she seemed kinda upset, and by the end of it she told me she wasn’t feeling the same way about us anymore. I believed her and broke contact.

Two weeks before my departure, I started meeting with all my friends to say goodbye. I texted her and told her I wanted to say goodbye too. She was in Berlin and basically crossed the country from east to west just to see me one last time. She looked so in love, just like before. It was a really beautiful date. I always loved how caring she was with me and how much attention she paid to every little detail about me.

Now I’ve been back home for a couple of months, and some time ago I texted her to ask how she was doing. She replied with very long and detailed voice notes explaining everything that had been happening in her life. She wasn’t going through the best time because of some health issues, but it still felt really nice to hear about her life again. I replied in the same way, and honestly, I can’t help being happy to be home, but also sad because I can’t be with her anymore.

The thing is, I’ve been wanting to tell her everything I never said before because of fear or pride. I want to tell her how much I cared about her and how much it hurt me to leave. But idk if it would be inappropriate, pointless, or maybe she already knows and there’s no need to say it.

P.S. Sorry, that was a really long text.

So, I went to Germany on Erasmus in 2025 for the winter semester, during my second month there I met a girl. She invited me on a date and we went for coffee and then to a pub later. I’d say we clicked from the very first date. We had a second date and she invited me to her house. She cooked ramen for me, and then we kissed and she asked me if I wanted to go to her room. It was really amazing. It wasn't just sex, everything was so sweet and we actually made love. We cuddled afterwards and it was really romantic. By that point, we were already falling hard for each other.

And that’s when everything got messed up. She was always bad at texting, but she still tried to text me every day. After that second date, though, her texting became even more inconsistent, and my anxiety got worse too because I was getting attached. I talked to her about it twice and she validated my feelings, apologized, and said she would try to do better.

Context: I was originally planning to stay in Germany for one year, but during that time I realized I didn’t actually like living there and decided to go back home after the first semester.

We met again to talk about us and everything. When I told her that I was leaving after the winter semester, she tried to find solutions for me to stay, but once I told her that I just didn’t like living in Germany, there wasn’t much else to say. Then we went somewhere else, she cried and got really anxious, and I tried to comfort her and apologized. In the end, we decided we would keep dating during the time I had left there.

We had another date, and she told me she wanted me to stick around, that she wanted to give me what I deserved and also what I wanted. It was really painful because I felt like she was treating me like a LTR, and I wasn’t going to be able to give her that, even though I wanted it so badly.

Then I bought my flight and told her my departure date. After that, she became inconsistent with texting again. I knew she wasn’t taking it very well, and I understood. During our next date, she seemed kinda upset, and by the end of it she told me she wasn’t feeling the same way about us anymore. I believed her and broke contact.

Two weeks before my departure, I started meeting with all my friends to say goodbye. I texted her and told her I wanted to say goodbye too. She was in Berlin and basically crossed the country from east to west just to see me one last time. She looked so in love, just like before. It was a really beautiful date. I always loved how caring she was with me and how much attention she paid to every little detail about me.

Now I’ve been back home for a couple of months, and some time ago I texted her to ask how she was doing. She replied with very long and detailed voice notes explaining everything that had been happening in her life. She wasn’t going through the best time because of some health issues, but it still felt really nice to hear about her life again. I replied in the same way, and honestly, I can’t help being happy to be home, but also sad because I can’t be with her anymore.

The thing is, I’ve been wanting to tell her everything I never said before because of fear or pride. I want to tell her how much I cared about her and how much it hurt me to leave. But idk if it would be inappropriate, pointless, or maybe she already knows and there’s no need to say it.

P.S. Sorry, that was a really long text.