I’m so confused
Okay I’ll try to keep this short but I know it’s not going to be. So I’m m21 and I need some solid advice. Last year at college I met one of my best friends F19 who we have been good friends for both semesters and she hangs around my friend group now a lot and she’s part of it. Lowkey I’ve had slight feelings for her for months now. She was in a relationship for the majority of the time we have been friends. The guy she was seeing wasn’t that great (and I’m not just saying that cause I like her.) but they broke up 2 months before the semester ended. Her and I got very close like we would do stuff just us almost every day and if we weren’t we probably would be with our friend group. Now silly me before the semester ended I decided I wanted to shoot my shot with her. I did but not confidently and I def didn’t say it how I wanted and she responded idk if we had more time the answer would be different. (Background: when I asked her out I was dropping her off at class after we had been hanging out and it was like 2 or 3 weeks before I moved across the US for an internship.) we ended up texting about it later and she was like sorry if it hurt our friendship I just don’t want to try something when we both are about to move away. High key hurt I really like her and want the best for her. But we have been texting and calling a bunch while I’m on my internships and she’s moved back home. Idk some weeks we talk more others it’s less. Partly it’s due to we both work her 30-40 hours a week and me 50-60 hours a week. And there’s a 2 hour time difference so when she’s free I’m going to bed. I can’t tell if I have a chance with her.
Anyways she was asking me if I got time off work and would be free to go camping with my friend group sometime. I said I don’t get pto and would be able to leave for it. (I’m already going on a week long camping trip with my family that I’m taking time off for) I told her she should come to that camping trip and she said the dates i was going she was going to be visiting one of her childhood friends who lives 4 hours away from my internship. I told her well we should plan it that we will be in the airport to see each other she said she would want to see each other. So she was trying to plan something so we who other but our travel days don’t align. We then talked about me driving and picking her up and then she stays the night at my place and flys home from a different airport closer to me then the one she fly’s into to see her friend.
A few days later she texts me she thinks it won’t work to see me. It kinda hurt but I was going to let it go till I get a call from her this week saying okay what’s the plans I want to see you and spend the night at your house before I fly home. So now I’m going to pick her up and see her before she flys home.
Anyways if you made it this far thanks for the read. Do you think I have a chance with her? Idk I feel like it’s kinda crazy to just come up and visit me while she’s out just cause we are good friends and she doesn’t see me as any more but I’m trying to not read into it. Drop your advice