u/Accomplished-Cat3867

Just a vent but long story short I took SSRIs as a kid for mild OCD, came off two years ago, had PAWS for like a year and have PSSD. I have recovered some emotionally and I have severe debilitating OCD now.

I am far from home and when I bring up obsessions/compulsions/rituals/intrusive thoughts/needing reassurance/literally anything OCD related on the phone my mom gets annoyed and sometimes hangs up on me. Same person who claimed she had me medicated because she couldn’t stand seeing me so distressed even though it was mild contamination OCD that didn’t significantly impact my quality of life and I could’ve dealt with in therapy.

I suffer badly now from many themes, and for about a week and a half every month I am very susceptible to panic attacks. She gets mad sometimes when I call her when I have those too, especially if she can hear me loudly hyperventilating.

When I had PAWS and would call her everyday begging for help saying I want to rip my skin off and jump out of my body and all I think about is suicide she showed less care than when I was 11 and wouldn’t touch egg cartons because I was scared of salmonella.

Since I am away from home she can just ignore me for days and hang up whenever she feels like it. But when I was a kid my OCD burdened her more than it did me, and that’s when she cared the most.

I love my mom, and I don’t feel much love. I forgive her and I know she would’ve never done it if she knew the risks. I do love her and I know she loves me too but it sucks that now that my OCD is actually a legitimate problem, she doesn’t want to hear about it. My anxiety is too much for her.

Hello everyone,

*THIS IS NOT JUST ANOTHER PETITION*

The amazing Kim Witzciak recently launched a website serving as a petition for those with PSSD (and other SSRI injuries) to sign and document their experiences of harm with these medications.

It serves as a central place to show the volume of people being injured by these drugs. To convince those in power that these injuries are devastating a massive population size, deferring to Reddit groups won’t cut it/isn’t official enough. As such, this petition will be the MAIN SOURCE of reference when used to show the people we need to convince this is ruining/ending lives.

Please sign this, mention your experience and age if you can!!

We have SUCH power in numbers if we can all band together!

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In my opinion the DSM-5 is a load of bullshit but at the same time I tell myself it is a disorder because otherwise I succumb to it. In order to have my compulsions under control I tell myself this is an illness. The obsessions I have and the compulsions and rituals are insane enough to ruin my life and that’s the sad truth. On one hand I don’t want to believe in mental illness as anything other than a social construct. Some people decided what is and isn’t socially acceptable or deemed normal and now we all get labels because of it. On the other hand, this really does make me feel awful every second of the day. It does make me sick. I don’t want to believe I am mentally ill. But if I accept how I feel as just how I am, I will spiral even further. I cannot think of my thoughts as rational because it makes everything worse. I would not wish this hell on anyone. Not this and not protracted withdrawals which I had and PSSD which I have. I hate the thought of going back to therapy but I’ve been contemplating for months. So I try doing ERP on my own. Doesn’t help when the obsessions won’t go away. Great I avoided my compulsions so I get to continue freaking the fuck out. I am afraid I’m far gone. I just bought NAC and hoping it helps. Truth is I can never trust my brain because of this. And the cognitive issues from PSSD make it even worse because my thoughts are so disorganized. I never had cognitive issues before the SSRIs I was put on against my will 9 years ago. OCD on its own is one thing but OCD and not having any desire to live and all my interests being gone and no excitement about anything is making me think about suicide multiple times a day. As controversial as it may be here, I do want a safe and effective treatment for the sake of the quality of my life and others. I am really suffering.