u/Accomplished-Rice931

I’m biracial adopted by white parents. I married a white man and all my friends except one are white. I live in an extremely white rural town in Massachusetts and I have never felt more isolated than I have recently. I am so sick of being surrounded by white people but it feels weird to seek out black people to make friends. I don’t know what to do to find some connection with people who look like me but it’s making me angry that I live in these entirely white spaces and it’s ALWAYS on my mind.

I have lesbian moms so Mother’s Day is kind of a requirement in my family but I kind of hate it. After I came out of the fog It’s always been a really emotionally confusing day for me. My moms gush about how much they love being my moms and that’s very sweet and loving but they always wind up saying something about how they are grateful to my bio-mom and I Clam up and completely shut down. I don’t want to talk about it with them really ever but definitely not on Mother’s Day. It’s hard to have the most joyful day of their lives be the most painful violating day for me. I love them so much but man this is hard and confusing. I just want to hide tomorrow.

I have lesbian moms so Mother’s Day is kind of a requirement in my family but I kind of hate it. After I came out of the fog It’s always been a really emotionally confusing day for me. My moms gush about how much they love being my moms and that’s very sweet and loving but they always wind up saying something about how they are grateful to my bio-mom and I Clam up and completely shut down. I don’t want to talk about it with them really ever but definitely not on Mother’s Day. It’s hard to have the most joyful day of their lives be the most painful violating day for me. I love them so much but man this is hard and confusing. I just want to hide tomorrow.