u/Accomplished_Cup_464

I have posted here a couple times, me and my ex were together for 3 years, she’s diagnosed as bipolar 1, she was on meds the beginning of our relationship until going off then for a year and recently being medicated only to break up with me over text less than two weeks later after starting an antidepressant and lamictal. since the beginning of what i think is an episode caused by this introduction or combo of meds she has been wearing a necklace i bought her, now she’s wearing a ring that is sentimental to our relationship and even has engravings on it that would bring up memories and feelings attached to our relationship. i also saw a picture where the flowers i bought her months ago right before she broke up with me are dead on the counter still in a vase. i am just confused as to what it all means.

I also wonder what kind of behavior you all have seen your bipolar so’s acting out on social media. i’ve noticed she doesn’t repost anything at all about grief, sadness, or anything that shows i was even a person in her life. she’s loving the attention she gets on social media, as everyone is saying how hot she is and how attractive and beautiful she is. she’s getting more views and likes than ever before when we were together and she’d post. she has reposted some things about bipolar, bipolar psychotic features, and what she experienced on these meds as well as reposts hinting she’s off the medication again.

I know it’s illogical and most comes from that illogical place but i just am curious to know what others have experienced around this and if this normal behavior. the episode has been going on for over 70 days.

I felt like I was doing so much better and really improving for a bit there. It’s been almost a month in a half since my discard. We were together for 2.5 years. I keep a door open with her on snapchat otherwise she’s blocked everywhere else. I am not sure how to get myself to feel better.

I miss her so much and everyday is a struggle. I am doing everything I possibly can to get over this, I am in therapy, I am doing Emdr therapy, and I see a psychiatrist. I am in such a rut. I feel more depressed now than I did in the beginning of the discard.

The hardest part about this is feeling like you are gaslighting yourself into believing it was an episode. I still can’t get myself to quite believe this is an episode as she seems so fine, some of the weird things i’ve noticed her doing/ posting over the course of the last month have been in the beginning of the discard she was posting anything and everything she wanted to, there wasn’t a pattern it was just whatever she wanted to and quite often. then she posted going to a concert 9 days after breaking up with me over text and posted her face for the first time since the episode began on july 21st. she then went almost two weeks without posting to snapchat and reemerged to post a picture of her car radio two days in a row before falling back into no posting for almost a week. Once again she reemerged and this time she was only posting pictures of herself for about a week before going quiet a few days and coming back to post on pictures of the car radio with specific songs on the screen. today was the first day she posted something random that didn’t follow a pattern. she went out drinking so she posted something about “this is why you don’t take us drinking”.

Looking at these posts doesn’t make me anxious and I don’t actually click on her stories so she doesn’t see me as a viewer. I am also not sure as to why and if anyone can help me gain insight that would be helpful, is there a reason that she still hasn’t said anything regarding doing an exchange of our things as she still had my things at her house? Is there also any meaning to her still wearing a necklace I bought her? Does it mean anything that she kept me added on snapchat when she unfollowed me on instagram and wiped me clean off every social media of hers before I blocked her on a lot of them?

It’s so illogical that it makes my head just spin, I can’t be the only one who struggles so much with how illogical it is. I don’t even know who she’s with and who is enabling all of this.

*for context she was on meds the first year or so of our relationship, then she went off meds for a year, and was medicated on july 21st where she completely switched over night on july 22nd. I am just looking for some answers or some hope. I am feeling so down and life just gets harder and harder to keep pushing through.

I have only done two sessions of emdr and I am just wondering if it is normal for me to feel a lingering feeling of grief. I am having very vivid dreams ever since doing emdr and they are about people in my past like friendships that meant a lot to me but ended or past relationships. They all have some meaning to them or link together somehow but it brings up this just feel feeling of grief when I wake up and try to just go on about my day. I am wondering if anyone else has experienced this and is this normal?

Me and my girlfriend have been together for 2.5 years and we have struggled the past two months with her wanting endless amounts of space and independence. What started off as a real relationship issue surrounding codependency and wanting some more independence and time alone became an endless cycle of push and pull as she wanted all the space in the world. we chased circles around each other as i kept pushing for her to come back and she kept pulling. she has been off meds for the last year of our relationship due to a scare from the meds but recently she just got put back on meds. it’s only been about two weeks on the new meds. does anyone have any advice for me as i am going crazy with her now reaching out to me after a week of silence and continuously saying how she can’t keep doing this or how we can’t keep doing this, and how she feels she can’t come back form this or doesn’t know how to and doesn’t want to drag me down with her or continue to hurt me like she did on monday when we last spoke? I just need some clarity on if staying silent when she texts these things is the way to handle the situation so her episode can ride its course without her making rash decisions and looping back into this self sabotaging behavior as well as give her medication the chance to do it’s work. i know a lot of people have been hurt by this kind of behavior but my partner was stable on medication for a long period of our relationship ship and i know who she is and how determined she is to keep growing and being better than her past or issues.