Defeated by my own ego
Id appreciate some honest advice i know what i have to do but i just don’t know how to cope with it or get myself out of my own head. Ive been proven profitable for over 7 months just this last month though i blew up pretty much the last of my money from trading my life situations led to me using the charts and my pnl as something to prove my own self worth and i kept over leveraging and as my bank account diminished i blew about 40k in saving in about a week i needed trading to work so i didn’t have to go back to my old life working a job but obviously that was counterintuitive. I know i have to have another source of income now but my ego makes me feel like im above it when i wad pulling 20k months profit from trading and now i have to go back to making what id make in a week in a month i just cant bring myself to do it and its been about a month now and i know i have to if i want to continue trading but be more process driven and not so money hungry this time because i know i can pull money out the markets. Im only 21 years old
I know this isn’t the end of the world i just need some advice because this situation has really put me into a dark place and i just want to get back to where ice shown myself i can be i had to move home lost those friends this whole thing happening in such a short time just collapsed my identity and i feel lost.