Legit panic disorder
I don't take xannies for fun. I had my first panic attack in 2008 after my first Afghanistan deployment. Xanax is the only thing that helps. Klonopin fucks with my sleep. Valium is gay.
I went to the er over 200 times between 2017 and 2019 swearing to God I was having a heart attack.
Panic attacks fucking suck. Xanax is the only thing that helps. I've taken all the ssris and all that bullshit. Meditation, mindfulness, hydroxyzine, propranolol..... all the bullshit. Xanax is it. I take it extremely sparingly in Tiny doses. I have 2 kids that need me around.
None of the doctors in this fucked up state will help me. They're all scared to write scripts. Even VETERANS AFFAIRS won't fucking help despite having a long, documented history of server panic disorder with agoraphobia.
It's fucking ridiculous. My main concern is safety. I don't want to get fented. Can anyone help?