Help me with my Big 5 Results
Agreeableness 57
Extraversion 16
Conscientiousness 41
Openness 41
Neuroticism 82
Politeness 71
Industriousness 6
Orderliness 88
Enthusiasm 13
Assertiveness 26
Withdrawal 96
Volatility 48
Intellect 47
Aesthetics 38
(21M) I deal with a lot of negative emotion. More so anxiety and dread than anger. I've always gotten good in school, but never had the ability to handle responsibility to really excel or do multiple things at once.
I struggle deeply to maintain relationships outside of my family, often seeing them as "useless" because I always tell myself I'm too busy building and working but never seem to actually get anything done.
I have an intense desire for delayed gratification, wanting to get rich so I never have to work again and actually get to enjoy life later, yet the neuroticism makes it hard to do that, creating a vicious cycle.
All in all things could be much worse but I'm still in a lot of psychological pain and not sure how to change that, now or in the future. Any help or analysis would be appreciated.