I stopped doing this as often because my friends reminded me of my last all-nighter 18 hours no break exam portfolio rush only to bomb the exam presentation due to sleep deprivation
Does anyone else get this feeling?
For me it feels natural.
“If I don’t sleep today then I can relax tomorrow”
It’s annoying how this one specific classmate (former friend, used to hang out first weeks of uni, did some projects together, etc, not a random person EDIT FOT CONTEXT) of mine undermines much of what I do since I’m on meds.
I take 4 different medications (moodstabilizers and seroquel for sleep) and I’m not really that functional. I struggle with laundry, procrastinate, etc. I barely feel their effect, but I was much worse before.
If I do well on my exams, she’d comment on how she needs ADHD meds. She’d make comments about my weight (not even knowing my history around food issues and weight) by saying I was thin because of stimulants. I actually haven’t had any significant changes in weight and I’m too lazy to cook so I literally just eat snacks and candy. I’m also on lithium that is notorious for weight gain, so this just made me insecure about any future weight fluctuations.
I need my meds. I don’t even feel their effect anymore, and at best it would help me feel less emotionally unstable. I think there’s a big misconception regarding stimulants.
They don’t unlock any superhuman powers, and they help me not give up due to frustration (I used to drop out of classes due to feelings of inadequacy).
I don’t know how NT people react to them.
The first time I took them, I felt strangely calm and “slowed down”.
“Can you give me your meds?”
This question truly angers me.