We aren’t back together yet but he’s seeking help for his mental health rn (the reason why he broke up with me, just felt like he wasn’t worthy & pushed me away). He told me he thought about me always and when we talked on the phone last night one of the first things he said was that he missed my voice & missed me!🤗🥲
He unfollowed me on insta two weeks after the break up, but has kept me on snap, (It’s been a little over a month since the break up). I was scrolling through my chats on snap and saw his name disappeared so I thought he blocked me and started freaking out lmao, I crashed out and texted him that I was confused and that he’ll always be special to me, blah, blah, blah. Turns out he just deleted his socials and said “I told you I wasn’t going to block you and meant that. I’m sorry though, I can see why you thought that but you don’t have to worry”. For some context he broke up with me because he was depressed and didn’t feel as thought he could be the boyfriend I deserve, even though he was genuinely the best boyfriend I could’ve ever ask for. I just asked how he was doing and he told me his head was the worst it’s ever been and I told him that i’ll always be there for him no matter what, that I’m only a text away and that he was the best bf, the best friend, the best person to have in my corner. He hearted the message. I don’t really know what to do from here, can I do anything? I mean all I can hope is that his mental health gets better but i’m really at a loss. I adore that man, and all I want is for him to be happy.
I’m at a point where I don’t really care to affirm & such because I know it’s mine already yk? I feel like I probably still should just so doubts don’t arise & I don’t go back to the old story but I truly feel zero resistance currently. I’m really at peace & feel as though i’m living in the end, just hope I stay feeling this way but I think I will I’ve been pretty consistent :)