u/Acrobatic-Abalone675

I don't know what to do. Part of me doesn't want to burden him, since he's already had to deal with me on previous relapses, but I also feel like I am lying to him over this.

I am getting therapy and my meds adjusted, just because I want to stop for him. I feel awful and like a terrible person. I told him I've been feeling depressed again, but I feel like a burden every time I bring it on. I know I am lucky and that he will support me, but I don't see myself as worthy enough to be asking for this advice.

I've been putting good makeup on my new scars, tried the damn rubber band method (but it sucked and made me yeet again). It's been a few weeks and I've managed to hide the scars so far, but I still feel awful.

Any advice? 🥲

I don't know if anyone relates. But sometimes I feel too okay and feel like cutting myself again. I'm not feeling depressed right now or anything, I feel fine, but I just feel like I deserve to cut myself and feel sad again. I guess it gives me a feeling of control.

Does anybody relate?