u/Acrobatic-Motor6220

so i (17f) just started college a week ago, and i have this mutual on ig that just so happens to also go to my college and he’s also 17. we decided to meet up and now we sit and talk in his car every night. i feel like it’s too early to say that i like him but i always look forward to our late night chats and i also find him attractive. i’m just kind of at a loss because my friends ask me if i like him or not and i say no but im not too sure.

so i recently went on a cruise with my family and im 17f. my cousin is also 17f and i’ll call her maya. so the entire cruise me and maya didn’t really do anything together. on the first night she didn’t even want to go into the teens club with me because she said it was “too embarrassing” and that led to our first few days not really being eventful.

so fast forward to the second night and we were on the top deck just people watching and these two guys come up to us. me and the guy that i was talking to exchanged numbers and ended up watching a movie with us later that night. while we were watching the movie maya left me and the guy alone because she felt like she was third wheeling. i didn’t really mind because it was late so i let her be.
i texted the guy the next day saying that maya felt like she was third wheeling and he asked if she wanted to go on a two man with one of his people. i asked her and she said no. i respected her decision in not wanting to so i told him that she said no and left it at that.

anytime that i seen him around on the boat i didn’t want to leave her and go talk to him because why would i choose somebody that i just met over my cousin that i’ve known for my whole life.
so fast forward to the second to last night she was talking to a different guy. the guy that maya was talking to asked if i wanted to go on a two man with him and his friend and i said no because i was already talking to somebody else on the cruise. however, she did not respect my decision and told them that i said yea. i was unaware of this cause i thought that she’d respect my decision the same way that i did to her.

later that same night they came and walked up to where we was sitting at and i sat there for a little bit until they started walking and i walked off to the group that we ended up being friends with. after i walked off my cousin was getting all mad at me because i walked off and she was saying well why did you ruin the two man and why didn’t i take one for the team. in my head im like you can’t be serious cause when it was the other way around you didn’t want to take one for the team for me, like i understand that your my cousin and all but like im not just gonna do whatever you tell me to do.
so the last night of the cruise the group that we were friends with was playing truth or dare. i wasn’t playing with them cause i wasn’t about to kiss somebody that i had zero interest in and the guy i was talking to was packing his clothes. so i was sitting in there and maya was sitting in there with the guy she was talking to.

she constantly left where we were though for the guy cause he wanted to go walk around. and i’m gonna be completely honest that upset me a lot because when it was the other way around i would’ve stayed there with her because i’d choose her over a random. but i digress, so near the end of the night they came back and they were in there before maya had to leave because of her curfew.
now for this to really make sense, she was calling me easy for considering just kissing the guy i was talking to. she proceeded to have a full on makeout session with the guy she was talking to.. that really threw me off because like what are we doing..?
so a little after she left i went to my room and next thing yk it’s time for us to go. the drive was so awkward because she was wondering why i wasn’t talking to her and she kept asking if i was okay but it’s like i don’t want to talk to you cause your moving extremely weird.

the following days that’s all i could think about and i ended up blocking her because it genuinely just irritated me so bad. but part of me feels like im overreacting and i want to hear other people’s thoughts on this.

Is it weird for me to be a freshman at college (17f) dating a senior in high (16m) if it’s a year age gap? It feels off to me because like a 8th grader dating a 9th grader is kind of weird. Another thought that crossed my mind a lot of if ppl ask me if I’m dating someone and I say my boyfriend’s in high school it would sound kinda weird. I just want to get other people’s opinion on this because I’ve liked this guy for a year now and I think I’m ready to date him. It just feels like it’s still at an awkward time because of our current grades ig in school? Idk how to explain it..

I’ve been highly considering going to TSU since around my sophomore year, mainly for the dance team though I didn’t audition this year, but I was wondering what is it like there at TSU? Anything to be concerned about or just any warnings in general before I fully make my decision.