Need advice regarding arranged marriage discussion
Im a Muslim man and i have an un curable STD from past sexual encounters unfortunately in a haram way, there js alot of consequences i have been dealing with from my shameful past but the biggest problem right now is that my family keep bringing up the discussion of me getting married and they dont know any of my history or current situation, i keep trying to deflect and tell them im not interested but they keep trying to push and i think lately they have been feeling that something is wrong because this is already an emotional subject for me and them pressing on me is not making it any better
The other problem is they also bring it up infront of extended family members and i just want this to stop, i really dont want them to find out about my past or STD but how can i convince them to get the idea out of their heads and stop talking to me about this without confessing everything and without disappointing them
Ive tried telling them i just don’t ever want to get married but that just leads to more questions and confusion… Im starting to feel like the only way is to isolate myself but at the same time i feel like this would lead to more confusion and still hurt them