u/ActivelyTryingWillow

It’s time for me to rip the bandaid off.

I haven’t completely humiliated myself but I’ve definitely done things I would do differently.

It is very obvious my behavior changes around him. And it’s weird because I think his changes around me too? (But I may be delusional?)

He is a (insert career with authority here). My trauma since childhood is with that type of authority figure. So I’m sure that’s contributing. He was always super present and made me feel so seen/heard.

He did say he wanted to stay in contact and we have soooo much in common (even weird topics that I have trouble finding people to talk about with). But he doesn’t answer texts. He recently moved and I knew he was in the area for a week but he didn’t text me.

I’m trying to rent in NJ and I feel like I’ll message the listing and don’t hear anything back then it’s gone. Would applying right off the bat be a bad idea? I always assumed it’s better to see the place before doing that but I’m kind of at a loss.

The most recent place I messaged was through Goldberg Realty.

Any tips would help.

I don’t know anyone in my life that would go with me. Is there a resource to find a roommate for a retreat?